2oo7. This is what you get if you begin feeling really mixed up.

I was talking to my ever dearest mother last night til the clock stroke 12 midnight.
When i looked at the clock, I began feeling really mixed up.

I was mixed up because I realized it was December 31, 2007. This year was practically over.

365 days seem long so it it's very hard to get over the fact that another 365 days just passed by. It was like a snap of a finger.

I told my mom how much i wonder how 2oo8 is going to turn up. Like, what could be the surprises up in the sleeves of the gods of destinies? What new lessons are there for me to learn? What pains am i going to be going through to help me become a better person? Will I be able to endure every hardship that would be thrown at me this year? I know. I went through some this year and i'm still alive! Okay then. But what if it will be harder to the point that my powers won't be able to surpass it?

So many questions just kept on popping up in my head. One after the other. These stuff I just mentioned aren't even probably half of the questions that came up last night.

I AM A WORRIER. and i absolutely hate it.

This quote came up in my head sometime this year. I don't know if I thought of it or I saw it somewhere. So I'm not taking any credit.

"Mabagal ang oras, mabilis ang panahon."

Now isn't it fascinating how totally right this saying is?

I mean one day we get all psyched up for this certain event to happen that's like 100 days away! But then we wake up another day realizing that it's over. It's a bizarre feeling actually and well I know that you and I have probably experienced it a lot of times already.

It scares me. Really.


I thought of life like A BIG VIDEOGAME! Every year is a level up! Well, you could easily see my analogy since the digits just keep on changing. So in a few hours, it's a level up for all of us!


I wanna be like  Peter Pan and go to Neverland and never grow up! I am a coward, yes. I am afraid of what the future might bring me. I am always scared of these level ups in fear that I would fail doing what is expected of me by the people around me, and of course, myself.

My mother told me that

GOD NEVER CHALLENGES US WITH SOMETHING HE KNOWS WE CAN'T HANDLE.

I believe that of course. It's just that there are times I would forget and just go on being scared in panic. :| aren't I pathetic?  I wish I don't forget it this year.


Well what else comforts me is the fact that I am not alone. I have God, my family, my friends.. well basically the people I hold so close to my heart ♥ they all deal with the same sh*t I deal with. Just not at the exact same time. HAHA we have our moments. So just the fact that I know that there will always be someone who would share my pain should make it a lot better!


wow. I have babbled A LOT haven't I? HAHA apologies. My thoughts just go really crazy when I write. Sometimes I don't make sense anymore. :P

the time now is 4:17 PM.

That's 8 hours til the level up. I'm done letting everything out. It's a New Year for everyone. All I could do is be the best person I can be! I don't really make resolutions because I end up disappointing myself. It's fun if it's all unexpected--at least that's what I did last year and look at me!

I'm surprised at how I turned up to be!

I've changed a lot and I just will keep on doing so.

I AM READY!
(for now)

In a few hours, my arms will be wide open and as I will be screaming my lungs out to welcome the year  

2oo8.

I am not sure if I'll make it through alive and happy but I do know I won't be alone!
Here's wishing you guys have a good time tonight. :P

bye 2oo7 :(

It's almost 2oo8. Just getting closer and closer to getting hella old :|

HAHA oh well. I got this from Nikki :>

 

In 2007
Did you do something you would never do?:

-lemme rephrase that. I did something i didn't think i was going to do at this year :>

Did you keep any New Year's Resolutions?:

-i don't really make New Year's resolutions :))

Did anyone close to you give birth?:

-ehh no.

Did anyone close to you die?:

-no. i dread it. O.o

Did you visit any countries?:

-i was lucky this year! i went to the States (NYC! :>) and HK! :)) kewwl enough :D

What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?:

-more happiness and luck and opportunities!! WEE

Will any date from 2007 stay etched in your memory forever?:

-oh yes. the 15th of this month shall forever be etched in every part of me. :D ♥

What was your biggest achievement of 2007?:

-watching BROADWAY! :)) HAHA was that an achievement? oh yeah and getting through life with a frigging CAST on my leg for two months! and finally riding a roller coaster with A LOT of loops! :> boo i know i'm lame :P

What was your biggest failure?:

-being such a loser. :| HAHA and not making it to the honors list because of one stupid component

Did you suffer illness or injury?:

-when i broke my frigging bone. :| that was THE WORST! oh and wow thank God I did not get sick this year. as in fever sick! :)) I was lucky! :D

What was the best thing you bought in '07?:

-ehh i got an iPod finally? :))

Did your behavior change over the year?:

-yeah i became less emotional about stuff. :|

Where did you spend most of your money?:

-ionoo. food, shopping and GIMMICKS! :> they just keep getting better and better

Are you happier than this time last year?:

-mas ma-angst ako ngayong taon na 'to. goodness sana hindi madagdagan :|

What song will remind you of 2007?:

-So Close I guess :"> and Lean Like A Cholo, Beautiful Girls, Don't Matter! HAHA was soo ghetto this year :P but yeah So Close is numbaah one! :))

What do you wish you would have done more of?:

-made life fun-ner

What do you wish you would have done less of?: 

-procrastinate :| deaaym.

What did/will you do for Christmas '07?:

-ehh nothing new.

Did you fall in love in 2007?:

-nope. but i have been more sure of my feelings now.
 hindi kasi dati pa ko inlove waaaw! :)) HAHAHA de basta malabo. you don't need to know :P  :))

Did you get your heart broken in 2007?: 

-i don't think so. :| haha! ohYEAH! but it wasn't serious! It was more of a heartbreak because he was waay too unreachable! BWAHAHA no sentimental and crappy mushy stuff there. It was all fun! I'm happy naman!

Favorite TV program of '07?:

-ehh nothing. HAHA but i watched the season of GossipGirl :)) AHAHA that was funn :>

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?:

-hate is such a strong word. dislike maybe?

What was the best book you read and/or movie you saw?:

-hmm. i can't think of any. I've seen a great deal of good movies this year. :D

What was your greatest discovery?:

-ehh. i'm kinda waiting for it to happen :)) ooh i know! I REALLY CANNOT reach my nose with my tongue :)) HAHAHA we tried it the other night :))

What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?:

-I turned 16. just a regular day actually. people greeted then i had some cake at night. oh and ate sarah gave me a cake!! :D weee! then i got an unexpected phone call :">

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?:

-ohmigoodness Nikki i agree. Hay Ralph at Diona.. :( tapos onga. i miss white plain tshirts :(

How would you describe your personal fashion concept of 2007?:

-sabi ng mga tao mas nagsleeveless daw ako :| HAHA iono i got more clothes and shoes this year! weee!! Thank goodness for hand me downs!!


Friends

Who was the best new person you met?:

-best new person i met? wow. umn.. i met Danica! THE SWEETEST baby ever.! i guess? :))

Who did you wish you did not meet?:

-ask my major batchmates. :)) we all know who he is :| AHAH

Who was your best friend?:

-was? umn okay? Si Clyde parin. tapos nandyan ang forever kong mga mahal na majorfriends! :)) HAHA

Who was your enemy?:

-HAHA ask my major batchmates :))

Who do you miss?:

-aww.. lotsa people :(

Who will you never forget?: 

-a whole lot of people crossed my path that yeah i don't think i'll be forgetting anytime soon.:))

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007:

-I learned two things:

You can't please everyone.
If things are meant to be, it will happen

What will you always remember about 2007?:

-everyone that became a part of me. shocks :))

Aspirations for 2008...
What do you want to do in '08 that you couldn't in '07?:

-ohh yeah! get out of Luzon! hindi naman kasi natuloy yung sa Davao. tsk tsk.

Any resolutions?:

-IMPROVE!

What's different about 2008 than 2007?:

-besides the difference in number i am hoping that something great would come out of it next year.

Anything you want to change about yourself for 2008?:

-i wanna become a better person. deaaym :))

Do you want to make more friends in 2008?:

-bring on the friends honey! :))

Multiply

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LoJaeGue's Multiply. HAHA

What major is right for me? /:)

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tis the season to do surveys falalalala. :|

Have you ever thought about getting
your lip pierced?
= thought about it. as in liek i imagined it. but no i don't have any plans of doing so. :))

Does a kiss make you feel better?
= iliekhugs better :D

Have you ever passed out on the
bathroom floor?
= ehh no.

Do you start the water before you get
in the shower or when you get in?
= start the water before i get under the shower thingie

What did you do today?
= clean.internet

Have you ever brushed your teeth while
in the shower?
= ionoo.

What is your favorite sport?
= nothingg :))

What color is your shower curtain?
= oraange with really adorable circles

Have you ever had stitches?
= no. :|

How long ago did you hug someone?
= just this week. the most memorable one though was done last week ;)

Do you know how to use chop sticks?
= yuup

Lyrics stuck in your head?
= "so close and still so far..."

What are you doing tomorrow?
= celebrate Christmas

Have you ever run over an animal?
= no

What is your favorite cereal?
= i don't have a favorite cereal

Have you ever had an Oreo with peanut
butter?
= no

Are you more of a coffee or alcohol
drinker?
= neither

Have you ever thrown shoes on a
telephone wire?
=no. :)) HAHA sayang shoes ko no.

Have you ever climbed up a water tower?
= ohyeaah! thaat was funn

Do you talk in your sleep?
= they say i do. :))

Are you a redneck?
= no?

Have you ever gotten a mosquito bite
on your face?
= yeah. :|

What does the 10th text message in
your inbox say?
= Yeah, i just applied now. hahaha! mwah! apply na rin.

Can you recite the alphabet backwards?
= with greeeat difficulty :)

What's your profile song and why?
= it changes everytime you check it out

Need to get something off your chest?
= not really

Last person you had a deep and
meaningful convo with?
=my mom?

Where was the last place you went?
= my room

If you could be with your first love,
would you?
= HAHA gooo why naaat? =)) HAHA UBE! :)

Look at your 1st top friend think
about it do you really like him/her?
= sino ba 1st top friend ko? :))

What was the last thing you
highlighted?
= ionoo

Who is the last baby that you held?
= i think it was Danica :( i miss her

Do you know of any twins with rhyming
names?
= i know charlene and charmaine :))

Have you ever worn a crown?
= oh yeah :))

Last time you saw fireworks?
= last saturday :) it was perfect. snow even fell. fake ones of course :))

Do you have a black dog?
= i have a brown one :>

Who was the last person you talked to
on the phone?
=manuel :))

Wouldn't you rather be with ur "lover"
right now?
=talagang "lover"? :)) HAHA with the kuno and all.

i'd be with anyone i love right now. :> miss ko na majorfriends ko.

What was the last thing you ever got
grounded for?
=i haven't been grounded. i think..

Do you have any strange phobias?
= haha. yeah i do :))

Do you crack your knuckles?
= sometimes. :P

What's one thing that can always be
found in your refrigerator?
= FOOD! :D

What color are your bed sheets?
= none right now. i took them out earlier this morning

So what will we call you?
=hoist. joke. joelle? :D

Who sleeps in the same house as you?
= my family :>

Suppose you see your
boyfriend/girlfriend kissing another
girl/boy, what would you do?
=ehhh?

and yet another survey. gosh i'm bored :|

1. Spell your name without an A ?
- joellemrietheresevergryuvienco. oky?

2. Are you single?
- singlesingledoubledouble :))HAHAHAHA duhh labo ko. :))

3. Whats your favorite number[s]?
- 8, 18, 88

4. What are you listening to right now?
- "unwritten" natasha bedingfield

5. Are you happy with your life?
- very :)

6. Where do you wish you were right
now?
- here, or there. :>

7. What should you be doing right now?
- doing homework :| this sucks

8. Do you have a crush on anyone?
- yes :)) i never run out of crushes :))

THE DIDS:

9. Did you ever want to be a doctor?
- Nope

10. Do you believe in God?:
- Yes :) how did this get into the dids? /:)

11. Did you want to be a firefighter?
- Nioope :))

12. What was the last thing you drank:?
- water :>

13. What was the last thing you
watched?
- Enchanted :>

THE WHOS:

14. Who was the last person you talked
to on the phone
- Manuel :>

15. Who was the last person to call
you?
- Manuel :>

16. Who was the last person to text
you?
- Ate Vera :)

0THER STUFF:

17. What plans do you have for tonight?
- checking my mental planner.....nothingg :(

18. Do you hate liars?
- idon't hate them :))

19. What have you done in your past
that you regret?
- i don't regret much anymore :D

20. What do you want to do when you
grow up?
- perform onstage :>

21. Have you ever kissed two people in
one night?
- more than!! at family reunions =)) HAHAHA

22. Did you ever have your heart
broken?
- yes. :( fixed na siya though :)

23. Have you ever wanted someone but
you knew you couldn't have?
- HAHA onaman! Kevin Clark is still my unreachable hottie :))

24. How are things between you and your
parents?
- perfrect :D

24. Do you like your life?
- hellyeaah :>

25. What is your favorite love movie?
- Enchanted and How To Lose a Guy in 10days :))

26. How long have you had myspace?
- ionooo :))

27. Has anyone close to you ever
passed away?
- Nope. :|

28. Have you ever not been able to get
someone out of your head?
- ionoooo:))

29. Do you ever wish you were famous?
- famous for doing something amazing :))

30. What does your friendster shout
out means?
- that the mind is waaay powerful :))

31. Elaborate your default photo:
- okaay? it was taken in Eastwood last December15. tapos i cropped it and made it black and white :)) okaay?

32. Any celeb you would want to marry?
- Kevin Clark :)) HAHAHAHA

33. Have you ever sung in front of a
large audience?
- oohyeah :))

SURVEY TIME --got this from Nicole :)

1. The phone rings, who do you want it
to be?
-siya :>

2 . When shopping at the grocery store,
do you return your cart?
-yeah i do :)

3. If you had to kiss again the last
person you kissed, would you?
- ;;) next question please:)

4. Do you take compliments well?

-.not really. I sorta suck at it:))

5. Do you play Sudoku?
-no. something i also suck at:))

6. If abandoned alone in the
wilderness would you survive?
-no. period :))

7 . If your house were on fire, what
would be the first thing you would
save?
.-i'd get everything near me and then go for my brothers along the way out :>

8. Who was the last person you slept
in the bed with?
.-my mom :)

9. Who do you text the most?
-riight now it's numberone :>

1 0 . Favorite children's book?
-iloveed the book of virtues

1 1 . Eye color?
-daark brown :>

12. How tall are you?
-5'3 pleaaase :>

13 . If you could do it over again,
start from scratch, would you?
-i used to wish i could. now it doesn't matter anymore

14. Any secret admirers?
-kaya nga secret diba?

15. When was the last time you were at
Olive Garden?
-???

16. Favorite ex..?
-wala pa ko niyan. :))

17. Where was the furthest place you
traveled?
-NewYork

18 . Do you like mustard?
-nope

19. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
-both! :D

2 1. Do you miss anyone?
-i miss quite alot of people :)

22. Can you do splits?
-halfsplits!! :)) MWAHAHAH.

23. What movie do you want to see
right now?
-enchanted

24 . What did you do for New Year
's Eve?

-oh wow i can't remember

25 . Do you think The Grudge was
crappy?
-i wouldn't want to know

27. Was your mom a cheerleader?
-no but i think she could've been one :))

28. What's the last letter of your
middle name?
-A

30. How many hours of sleep do you get
a night?
-it depends really

3 1. Do you like care bears?

-uhh no. :))

32. What do you buy at the Movies?
-popcorn and water :>

33 . Do you know how to play poker?
-no

34. Do you wear your seatbelt?
-only when i'm in front of the car

35. What do you wear to sleep?
-shorts a shirt

36 . Anything big ever happen in your
CITY?
-no. :))

37. Is your hair straight or curly?
-wavy :)

3 8 . Is your tongue pierced?

-no.

39. Do you like Liver and Onions?-

-neither

40. Do you like funny or serious
people better?
-i like someone who knows when to be serious and funny

41. Ever been to L.A.?
-hecka yeah! best summer ever :>

42 . What is on your mind right now?
-this survey. and if like i'll be singing toniight :))

4 3. Any plans 4 tonight?
-attend a party

44 . Whats your fav. song at the
moment?
.. .cool with you.. --> really Nicole?? COOL ilovethatsong too. but i love So Close most riight now.. ♥♥♥

45 . Do you hate chocolate?
-that's like a death sentence

46 . What do you and your parents fight
about the most?
-really weird stuff

47. Are you a gullible person?
-i can be :))

48. Do you need a
boyfriend/girl friend
to be happy?
-you don't NEED one to be happy okay? :))

49 . If you could have any job what
would it be?
-astronaut. wouldn;t that be cool? :)) HAHA!

50 . Are you easy to get along with?
-ihope so. :)

51. What is your favorite time of day?
-afternoon and niight :>

52 . Are you generally a happy person?
-i like to think of it that way :>

i've found it.

:) HAHA I was looking through my attic and I found the other piece. It simply said:

"Manuel."

Ai Si Volvieras Ami--the TA LoJaeGue way :P

okay Inday Badiday of this year's Christmas party. :)
We won yet again! Three straight years! HAHAAH! go go go!

Have fun guys :))

LuCa Inday Badiday :)

wee. :> me bored :)) HAHA just a survey

40 Secrets About Yourself.
Be honest no matter what.

[One] Who was your last text from?
my dearest dude :)) HAHA

[Two] Where was your default picture taken?
at home

[Three] What's your middle initial?
v.

[ Four ] Your current relationship status?

me single yeah babyy =))

[Six] What is your current mood?
sleepy but weird. and sentimental :))

[Nine] How old are you?
16

[Ten] If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
yes please? :D

[Eleven ] What's your favorite color/s?
BROWN!! brown&&pink, grey&&black

[Twelve] Ever had a near death experience?
i hope not :P

[Thirteen] Something you do a lot?
think. a lot :))

[Fifteen] Who can you tell ANYTHING to?
Clyde. Ayesha Majorfriends :D my mom :)

[Sixteen ] Name someone with the same birthday as you.
Avril Lavigne

[Nineteen] If you could have one super power what would it be?

could i fly? :D

[Twenty] What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
eyes :)

[Twenty-three] Favorite season?
summer. and fall. even if i haven't experienced it

[Twenty-five] Do you still watch movies or tv shows?
not really with TV anymore but MOVIES hell yeah bring em on :D

[Twenty-six] What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
nadaa :))

[Twenty -seven] Do you speak any other language?
Filipino and gibberish count? :))

[Twenty- nine] Describe your life in one word.
woot

[Thirty] Do you have any tattoos?
nope

[Thirty- one] Who was the last person you hung out with?

people at Ate Phine's party. Sigee imma list it down.

Clyde,Ji,Ka,Ate Phine, Ate Love, Ate Lordy, Ate Mary, Ate P3, Kuya Budj, Kuya Teri, Kuya Wowie, Kuya Chris, Kuya Jayson, Julia :)) did i forget anyone? :>

[Thirty- two] What are you thinking about right now?

Joe. I'm listening to his song right now :)) and yeah. some dude :>

[Thirty- three] What should you be doing?
sleeping?

[Thirty -four] Who was the last person that made you upset?
haha dude. but it was pretty momentary.

[Thirty -five] What are you listening to?
No One Else Comes Close by Joe

[Thirty -six] Do you like working in the yard?
no.

[thirty- seven] Who is with you?
me lonelyy

[Thirty-eight] Do you act differently around the person you like?
probably :))

[Thirty-nine] What is your natural hair color?
black.

[Forty ] Last time you were really happy?
last niight :>

KAREN AND ERL

Karen on bass
Erl on tiny guitar thing (sorry i can't remember what it's called please tell me)

Chronicles of words and thoughts from my attic: It is entitled "Missing"

I was wandering through my attic yet again. As i ventured through many piles of words and thoughts in my attic, I managed to get my hands on another piece of words and thoughts. I took 5 minutes of my time to stare at it. After 5 minutes, I sat down and read through it. It said:

"I'm missing something and i'm not quite sure what it is.

Missing something and not being sure what that thing exactly is, is probably harder than actually being aware of this missing object. I think this is true for the thought that there is something missing. This thought haunts me forever 'til I finally figure out what it is or 'til I eventually, find it. This is seeemingly more complicated compared to just looking and looking. Unfortunately, right now this missing thing is unbearably making me aware that i am missing it. I know that it's there but i don't know what it is or how to reach it.

For the many times I've been blind or simply dumb for not looking hard enough and losing things, this search may be the most difficult one. It haunts me. I get feelings or vibes yet I can't seem to figure out what it is and I don't seem to know how to get anywhere near it. It isn't tangible and that makes it the hardest. Do you know what else is driving me crazy? It's thei idea that's pushing me to ask myself: Is it right that I am searching for this? Am i merely wasting my time? This is torture for me as I frantically keep on searching.

If found, I'm sorry, I don't know how to reward you for it is quite impossible. There's another hint. There's only one person who could find it and all i could give in return is a part of me.

I think i know what I'm missing. I may be making possibly one of the biggest mistakes in my life for I could be wrong. That's what makes me human.

I think i know what I'm missing. What I think i know i'm missing may be wrong but as of now, it seems like the right thought to think of.

I think i know what I'm missing. I unusually say that what I am missing is not a something but a someone. My dear friend, my dear dear friend, I am here to tell you that that someone is--"


I was back to my senses again staring at this piece full of thoughts and words. The last part was torn. I was going to search through the piles again to find the remaining piece but reality had beckoned. It was time for me to go back down and finish things i had to do. As i went through my day doing things i had to do, all that circled my brain was the thought and determination for me to find that other piece. Until I find it and put it in this blog, I shall keep moving.

the webcam game

I was so bored today so i made up a game! :D

THE WEBCAM GAME

1. Get yourself really bored in front of the computer.
2. Put on the Webcam thing in My Computer
3. Take numerous pictures of yourself.
4. Turn it in to GIF.
5. HAVE FUN!!

It's fun I swear :D ahahha!!

super short part ng Nodka cheer

nakakatawa si Leanne, Clyde, Steph at Daniel :))

super short part ng Oistea cheer

natuwa lang ako kay Roi! napakapokerface :)) haha :D

boo. this is lame :)) [from ericka]

The FEMALE BODY survey.

Come on ladies, be truthful!

1. What color bra you wearing?
white :)) no excitement there :)) hahaah!!

2. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
it should fit :))

3. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
YES! :)) and it's not even just a boy :)) hahaa :P

5. Do you have a best friend?
yeah

7. who was the last person you hugged?
steph :D

8. Have you ever had your heart broken?
yieeah =)) hahah!

9. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
no :))

10. Do you like your life?
hell yeah :D

11. Do you shop at hollister?
no

12. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?
no

13. have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
more of slowly crept in :)) then i drowned :)) hahaha!

14. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
girls

15. How long have you had multiply?
ehh

16. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
i can't waiit to do it :)) hahaha!

17. What are your biggest fears?
the unknown

18. Has anyone close to you ever passed away?
not yet :|

19. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
i think.... nott :))

20. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
i didn't try :))

21. Do you believe in the saying “once a cheater, always a cheater”?
:|

22. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?
yea

23. Do you ever wish you were famous?
for something i've done amazing :)

24. Are you currently missing someone?
yieah HAHA that someone just doesn't know how much ;;)

25. Do you think any guys will open this just because it’s labeled “The female body survey?
those guys just have nothing to do with their lives :)) haha!

Todos Los Santos

this is my Arts Studies exam. yeaah go go go! :)) hahah!
eto yung pinagpuyatan kong homework :)) hahaa! haii buhay nga naman :))

pagpupuyat.

Okay it was the first time i tried staying up to do a project.
i'm not really used to doing it coz i'm what you could call a morning person. Usually my mind works best in the moring wait no.. when the sun's up. i worked til probably 3.

as time wore on i could feel my arms actually getting heavier by the second.

i felt my brains slowly coughing out.

i felt my patience.. i was running out of it.

it was pretty annoying because this certain video was totally lagging. it annoyed me so much.

the time now is  2 AM

what sucked even more was that i wasn't the only one in the room so i hat to put the friggin volume down. I strained my ears to actually get something out of it.

you have to finish it now so you don't have to worry about anything else tomorrow

that little voice in my head just helped me keep going.

the time now is 3AM

mom says go to sleep now.. hahah!

i give up eventually feeling as if my arms were dumbels. the occasional stretching of arms and cracking of bones was of no use to me anymore. even those things weren't effective.

it only meant one thing: get your butt in the bed and go to sleep girl.

i followed my instincts..




ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ...

ANG buhay [eto na. talagang Tagalog]

Matagal na nang nagsimula ang mundo at kasing dami na siguro ng mga bituin ang mga beses na tinanong ng tao kung ano ang buhay. Ano nga ba ang buhay? Nang iniharap ang tanong na ito sa akin, ako’y napatigil at napaisip ng lubusan. Maaari niyong sabihin na nabaliw rin ako dahil sa ikinatagal kong paninirahan sa mundong ito, marami nang kahulugan ang aking nalaman. Dahil ito’y napakarami, hindi ko alam kung ano ang paniniwalaan sapagkat punung-puno ng talinhaga ang halos lahat ng aking nalamang kahulugan. Yung tipong madadala talaga ang tao na para bang isa siyang malaking rebelasyon. Sa dami ng mga kahulugang ito, mahirap talagang pumili ng isa! Pumasok din sa isip ko na iba mag-isip ang mga tao kaya’t sa huli, nasa sa atin ang pagbibigay ng kahulugan sa simple ngunit komplikadong tanong na ito. Matagal ako nakatitig sa kawalan at aking napagdesisyunan na hindi ko talaga kayang dumikit sa isang paniniwala lamang kaya sana’y hayaan nalang akong sabihin ang lilan sa aking mga nararamdaman at naiisip tuwing nadadaanan ko ang tanong na ito.

Para sa akin, ang buhay ay parang isang malaking timbang. ‘Pag may magandang pangyayari, kailangang maging balanse kaya’t magkakaroon din ng di-kasing ganda na pangyayari pagkatapos. O ‘di kaya’y baliktad. Kahit ano man ang mauna, ganun umiikot ang mundo at kahit ang pinakamayaman o pinakamakapangyarihang tao sa mundo ay walang magagawa para labanan ito. Ito’y kailangang tanggapin ng mga taong naninirahan sa mundong ito. Masasabi ko rin na ang buhay natin ay punung-puno ng pagtutuklas ng kaalaman. Hindi nagkakaroon ng araw kung saan wala tayong bagong natututunan. Ang pag diskubre natin sa mga bagong bagay araw-araw ay tumutulong sa pagunlad ng ating pagkatao.

Hindi tayo ginawa ng Diyos para maging dekorasyon lamang sa mundo Niya. Ang ating pamamalagi dito ay may dahilan. Iyon sa tingin ko ang layon ng buhay. Minsa’y ginawa tayo ng Diyos para magampanan ang papel natin. Para gawin ang bagay na tinadhanang gagawin natin. Walang makakatakas. Iba-iba ang binigay sa ating tungkulin at tayong lahat ay inatasang gawin ito. Tila ang simple, hindi ba? Nagiging komplikado ang simpleng gawaing ito dahil kailangan nating hintayin ang araw na malaman natin ang papel na ito. Hindi agad-agad nalalaman ng lahat ang kanyang papel sa sandali ng ating kapanganakan. Kailangang pagtiyagaan. Hinatayin.

Dahil nabigyan ko na ng kahulugan ang napakakomplikadong salitang ito, sa pagharap ng huling tanong, ako’y nag-isip at nag-isip na parang wala nang bukas. Aking napagtanto na dahil ang buhay ay sadyang maikli, nais kong mabuhay na pinaniniwalaan na ang bawat araw ko ay ang huli. Mahilig akong tumitig sa kawalan at balikan ang mga nangyari sa akin dati. Sa mga panahong ito, maraming mga “paano kung” na tanong ang lumilitaw at ilang beses ko sinasabi sa sarili ko na “dapat ginawa ko ‘to!" o “dapat ito ang pinili kong desisyon, hindi iyon”. Ako’y laging naiinis sa sarili ko ‘pagkat parang lumalabas na maraming bagay na nangyari dati na hindi ko binigyang halaga noon. Lagi akong nagkakaroon ng mga hindi kanais-nais na mga emosyon tuwing ako’y nagbabalik memorya at sa totoo lang, ako’y pagod na. Dahil dito, napagdesisyunan ko nang iwasan ang mga masasamang emosyon na ito sa pamamagitan ng pagbibigay ng halaga sa lahat ng bagay na nangyayari sa akin. Hindi naman ako makasisiguro na mangyayari ang mga iyon uli. Mabuti nang maging sigurado kaysa magsisi sa huli hindi ba?

Binigyan tayo ng isang pagkakataon ng Diyos para mabuhay kung saan maaaring gawin ang kahit anong naisin natin! Gumawa ng mga magagandang bagay at pagkakamali narin. Sa pagkakataong ito na ibinigay sa akin ng Diyos, nais kong sulitin ang lahat. Itama ang mga mali o ‘di kaya maliin ang mga ginawang tama. Maging baliw na kung baliw, tanga kung tanga basta sa kahuli-hulihan ng lahat, magagawa kong ngumiti habang iniisip na tama ang lahat ng pagkakamali ko at nagamit ko ang isang pagkakataong ito ng lubusan! Ito ang aking bagong ambisyon sa buhay. Abangan nalang natin kung magagampanan ko ito.

when riding the Octopus

took a video while riding the Octopus.
okay, we look really stupid here haaha but it was funn :)) hahaha!!!

Switchfoot - The Economy of Mercy

got this from Clyde. ang ganda ng pictures nakakabaliww :) ahah

SEMBREAK o7

Sembreak
starts: October 19, 2007
ends: November 4, 2007
duration: 17 days

INTRO:
Due to past experiences, i've realized that i would spend most of my time during our sembreak lazing like a rug in front of the TV doing totally worthless things..

RESOLUTION:
My resolution is to make this sembreak totally worth it by doing productive things EVERYDAY

BUT:
i'm a human being prone to mistakes so i give myself four days at most to being a bum. :)) haha

AND THE EXPERIMENT BEGINS!

♥Oct19-uploaded photos and videos for multiply, blogged, photoshopped, downloaded songs, chatted and texted
♥Oct20-photoshopped and uploaded it to multiply, started this blog, took pictures, downloaded karaoke songs, watched stardust
♥Oct21-read harry potter (finally!), learned HTML codes (oh God i'm so lame), fixed my multiply, looked for eheads pics for ayesha, found an amazing pic photoshopped it and sent it to ayesha's multiply ,bought a perfume, took a picture of myself with a dress in BAYO (omigosh it was soo nice! ü), had a footspa and haircutt (neww look :P), worked out iTunes, took more pictures
♥Oct22-HAPPY BIRTHDAY jere and k jayson, downloaded songs, fixed my ipod
♥Oct23-went to Claret fair, fixed clyde's site, fixed my ipod
♥Oct24-went to megamall, did A LOT of things! (see pictures)
♥Oct25-went totally harry potter mode, fixed my room, internet
♥Oct26-went to the MC fair, uploaded pics, watched a movie, fixed my ipod
♥Oct27-went totally harry potter mode, went to cousins' crib, started the AS homework :|, made chika galore!! :D
♥Oct28-happy birthday ayesha! :D, watched Krissy perform
♥Oct29-voted, shopping the whole day! NEW shoes wee :), went Potter mode
♥Oct30-went potter mode, finished essay, internet, MEtrowalk :D
♥Oct31-Alabang trick or treating, won, took pictures, edited stuff
♥Nov1-Amadeo sleep over, bummed :| 
♥Nov2-Serendra, started exam :|
♥Nov3-finished exam, watched movie
♥Nov4-fixed room.

AFTERMATH
It's November 5 and my sembreak is officially over :| i was pretty productive i must say! i've accomplished a lot. I'm tearing over the fact [well not really] that Hell SEM is fast approaching .Ohmigosh i could just imagine all the work being thrown at us like dirty laundry. I'm starting a countdown til Christmas break! ohmigosh i can't waaait! Til then.. i'll be thin again :| greaat.. more sleepless nights for me.. and more seeing of.. unbearable people.. i cringe at the idea.. well that's life. you must be probably dealing with more sh*t riight now than i am. Let's feel each other's pain.. :|


At least i got one hell of a niight in YM today! happy happy! 3 in 1 niight baby!! All good news from 3!! YEAAH babyy!!

my idea of a crush

okay. though weird at times.. i think i still have enough credibility to state that i have crushes. countless crushes. it is --as the oldies say-- oh so normal for people at this age. now what i accept to be entirely weird with me is when i start having crushes on people that fit my standards really rightly, i go crazy head over heels in luv.! take note: luv. not love but luv. it's not a stupid text lingo but simply it i define it as: liking someone so much to the point of being really crazy but not loving someone enough to the point that one is willing to be a slave of that person.! (okay maybe i'm exaggerating :)) but i guess you know what i mean)

crazy clip with my cousins

this was done like four years ago. okay we look real stupid here :)) hahaa!

the wait

Here we are existing...

waiting...

most of us don't know what we are waiting for...

we are all as innocent as little girls...


waiting.

lost in the dark.

most don't know what they're waiting for yet..

but nevertheless.. we are all still existing.

just waiting...

waiting.

for the right time.

number ko-- 09066337007 wow infairness i like itt :))

You opened this so you have to do it.
Put the number representing what you are depending on the question. At the end it will look like a phone number so then put it in the subject line. You must do this or you will get bad luck for one entire year.

First, put a 0927-...
[you may change '27' into something else. Depending on your REAL number]

Here's your new digits:
-------------------------------
1st number, put what you are.
1- gay
2- taken
3- single and what ever happens, happens
4- single
5- happily taken and love that person
6- single but like someone :P
7- taken and confused
8- single and like someone, but can't have them
9- have lost all hope
0- bi
-------------------
2nd number, put your current Mood
1- Nervous
2- Bored
3- Confused
4- Just fine
5- Sad
6- Hyper
7- Sleepy
8- Angry
9- In Pain
0- Happy
-----------------------
3rd number is The color of your shirt
1- Black
2- Pink
3- Red
4- Orange
5- Blue
6- Green
7- Yellow
8- White/Gray/brown
9- Camo
0- none
-------------------------
4th Number is the month you were born in
1- Jan. or Feb.
2- March
3- april
4- May
5- Jun. or Jul
6- Aug.
7- Sep.
8- Oct.
9- Nov.
0- Dec.

5th Number is your Favorite Color
1- Black
2- White
3- Pink
4- Blue
5- Green
6- Red
7- Orange
8- Yellow
9- Purple
0- Other
-------------------------
Next Number is your favorite sport
1- Football
2- Basketball
3- Tennis
4- American Football
5- Rodeo
6- Volleyball
7- Touch football
8- Track
9- Rugby
0- Hate Sport --more of i just don't feel it :))
-----------------
Last number is your Sign
1- Aries
2- Virgo
3- Sagittarius
4- Leo
5- Cancer or Capricorn
6- Taurus
7- Libra
8- Aquarius
9- Gemini
0- Scorpio or Pisces

si luis naman nainggit. :)) haha!

*pero nakakatawa kasi while i was taking this video food came and i let go of the cam and totally forgot that it was still recording :)) aaaahhaa! random fact:))

si Jeiel. period. :))

til they take my heart away-michie and patti :D

point of view

i tried taking a video while skating :)) haha it was soo hard!! i ended up taking a video of my shoes.. mkaay :))

hindi ko mawari (wow)

NOTE:
i thought about making this blog full tagalog but then i realized that i couldn't. so i discontinued it in fear of it becoming conyotic. haha.
this blog may ( i said may okay?) not make any sense to you in the end. brace yourself.

sweet sixteen

okay, i turned sixteen last thursday and i discovered things i never thought actually existed. (which btw i found pretty unrealistic)

i learned that there's this thing that  if you haven't been kissed before your sixteenth birthday, it'll happen on that day. when i heard of this. a BIG laughing emoticon popped in my head! i was like hello??? first of all, i spent my birthday on a mountain! where the heck could you get an opportunity to do that? and well second of all,, there's no one i could think of! so it makes this belief less tangible! i mean like i will let go of something as "seemingly special" as a first kiss thing on my sixteenth birthday just because of this dumb belief. that's dumb.

okay, honestly, i just LOVE my birthdays! i believe that it's this special day that's for you! once a year. so yeah i pretty much put it on top of a pedestal. when september came around, i started being excited. i don't think it was the best thing to do because well,, yeah you guessed it. i didn't have an amazing birthday. why? a big HAHA! i woke up getting greetings from different people. it was nice. everything that happened that morning was okay. like it was a normal day. apparently this normal day became abnormal. not extra ordinary but abnormal. after morning classes and lunch (which btw was ick), i opened my wallet to get some money for my elective. i opened my wallet and saw nothing. how amazing! A GREAT AMOUNT OF MONEY was taken from me and of all the days for me to find out that i lost it was my birthday. i felt so dumbstruck. it was a horrible feeling. you could say that that particular happening just ruined everything.

i went to the vargas studio for photography classes. sir gerry btw was pretty nice and fixed up merienda for us. that cheered me up somehow! haha

i came back to the dorm feeling a little bit better. had dinner (which was still ick) and then went to the laundry area to have cake with my batchmates. it wasn't the party i envisioned i'll admit but i guess that's what happens when one studies in a mountain. :| after the celebration i found a cake from ate sarah which cheered me up even more. (thanks ate sarah!) my day was pretty much over. i hung outside my cottage with friends and just talked about stuff..

my mom called afterwards to greet me. at those moments i wasn't happy nor sad. again the feeling of having such a regular day came on me. it was then when my mom wished me a happy birthday even if everything wasn't going my way did my tears start pouring. i realized that i wasn't having a happy birthday afterall. my majormates were there and they probably noticed that i was crying but i guess they knew that i didn't want to open up yet. after hanging up, i couldn't take it anymore so i went in the bathroom all the while feeling really stupid wondering why i wasn't happy.

i came out and talked to clyde at her room. i ended up really hating being a teenager. okay i am a very emotional person and i hated it so badly because i never had this much angst before. at that moment i really hated the fact that teenagers' emotions just go up or down. scratch that. have absolutely no direction with absolutely no reason. it's like at this stage there are no why's nor how come's. there are just is'. is' that don't have explanations. like taoism. it just is. thinking about this while crying i hated it so much! i wanted to get out of this instability of emotions because if i were a suicidal i would've been dead by now. i hated the fact that i couldn't understand anything! i mean despite of all the surprises i had that day i still wasn't happy. the feeling that all external elements in your life seem to be going well however your heart and your mind just don't seem to agree. it was like being in limbo wherein one's punishment is living in a peaceful place but feeling extremely depressed.

I ABSOLUTELY HATED IT!

i just wasn't happy.

what made it horrible was the fact that there was no reasonable reason.

you know the usual result after crying? you feel better yes. i did.

after i felt better. i started moving on with the day. with the things i had to do.

just as i was about to hit the hay i received an unexpected call. you know i honestly don't know why but yes i did feel a whole lot better afterwards. i guess greeting through call makes all the difference in the world. you know compare it to texts. it's just different. don't ask why. i have no answer for that. i just felt good afterwards.

okay probably the closest things that happened on my birthday that were part of my fantasies were the cake, the friends? but that's it. what was weird about it was that i actually enjoyed the day after my birthday a lot  more than my birthday itself. it really was weird :))

though everything wasn't a dream come true. i realized just right now that what happened was something i needed. i didn't experience having loads of presents to open, becoming ravishingly gorgeous, throwing a massively awesome party or having whatever, a prince charming sweeping me off my feet on a day i happen to hold very close to my heart. i didn't exeperience these things because i didn't need this. these expected things are just superficial. sure, they'll be memories i could possibly cherish forever.  this rather depressing experience seperates me from those who experienced these magical things. if i experienced these things, that wouldn't make me any different from them. (i admit that i do feel bad that those things didn't happen to me. just to make that clear okay?) i learned real things. i was given the gift of reality on my birthday. reality is suffering afterall right? it's not the magical rags to riches story! i mean those stories are only there to inspire you. but what's the use of inspiration if you don't materialize it right?


sweet is just a word. sixteen is just a number. i guess it was set in the stars that i wasn't gonna have a hell of a time that day. God has his reasons and i won't bother finding out.

may life be sweet for all of us.

photo essay ng lojaegue

this was what we worked on all night!

we had to make a friggin story about patriotism :)) haha

trabaho!
ayesha-taga lagay ng transition
janine-tagaburn, bili, design ng cd
japhet-tagasunod ng utos ko at tagapicture
ji-ann-taga tanggal ng frame, taga ayos ng music, taga sunod at taga picture
joelle- tagadala ng materials.

comment :D

hell

which level were you placed in?

purgatory

 

 4

levels 1-3

 

 4

levels 4-6

 

 0

levels 7-9

 

 1

Our homework in Arts Studies III was to take the Inferno test..

I belong to the first level of hell-LIMBO

Charon ushers you across the river Acheron, and you find yourself upon the brink of grief's abysmall valley. You are in Limbo, a place of sorrow without torment. You encounter a seven-walled castle and within those wall you find rolling fresh meadows illuminated by the light of reason, whereabout many shades dwell. These are the virtuous pagans, the great philosophers and authors, unbaptised children, and others unfit to ente the kingdom of heaven. You share company with Caesar, Homer, Virgil, Socrates and Aristotle. There is no punishment here, and the atmosphere is peaceful, yet sad.

How about you? Where do you belong to?


CLICK and tell me where you were placed in..

sinapian si roi ni karen

would you kindly turn your attention to the right part of the video and see how roi dances like karen :)) hahaa!

WHAT IF???

okay. i guess i first got this idea from clyde one day.. and ever since that day, i would always think about it.. *sigh* well wouldn't it be great to have a what if machine?? i mean.. we all know that the adolescent years (from the ages 12-20.. it's just my perception of course) are probably the most critical years of one's life..

it is at this stage when we experience the moments where we figure out if we want to make the most out of our life or decide to just throw it all away..

it is when we meet maybe the most influential and unforgettable people in our life who either show us the right or the wrong way..

it is when we truly question our existence.. whether we are here for a reason or just here to be called what people would say epal??

it is when we experience the feeling of love for someone else.. if it is the simple puppy love or the true-forever-until-death-do-us-part-kind-of love..

it is when we break out from under the wings of those who nurtured us since birth..

well i guess you get the point by now..

moving on...

so.. im fifteen and well three years isn't exactly long yet but the question "what if...." has come into my mind oh so many times and it drives me crazy..

wouldn't it be absolutely cool if you could own a what if machine that could show you the endless possibilities of life?  things that are seemingly simple as what if you chose to go with this certain haircut or stuff that are not so simple such as what if you chose this course in college and the like.. as we all see in movies, when going back in time, changing something as simple as the way we blew the heat out of our coffee could do such a big difference in the future.. haven't we all seen that? aren't we all curious now?

having a what if machine would be like watching a movie about yourself.. everyone undeniably has a little bit of vanity in him/herself so to be able to see something about one's self for a change.. is well.. a change! (just message me if you believe otherwise)

forget the time machines everyone!!

now i've got something for you to ponder on........ what if _________?

you fill the blank..

The very interesting game of solitaire

i've been recently addicted to solitaire. :|

i'd play it in computers, laptops, xda's and ipods.. yes it's been creepy.. haha i found out also recently that solitaire helps in brain development. phew. then i won't have to worry about turning into those computer zombies with eyebags as big as a crescent moon who play dota or rose online.. no offense.. haha really.. please don't kill me..


but anyway.. it was said that this helps develop a person's intuition.. when it comes to choices.. man i need that badly.. well, i'm human! and like humans are made to be, i make mistakes that come from making the wrong decisions.. looking back.. i have made a lot of mistakes! i shudder at the thought that i haven't even reached halfway through my life yet so it means *shudder* i foresee more choices to make that bring a bag that contains either a happy or a teary or an angry outcome.

i've been playing solitare for such a while and well, i've drawn to conclude that this should be added to the oh-so long list of comparisons to life and to decisions. well it's pretty much like playing it.. one wrong decision could ruin the game however there is still a chance to find a way around that mistake.. we are allowed to undo but not always.. when every card is opened and you're pretty done, there are times when the cards at the top deck aren't arranged right so.. well.. winning is still out of reach.. like playing solitaire.. you go through life alone.. people occasionally pass by and whisper moves to you that either help or not but still it's vital..


CONCLUSION: Solitaire is a safe addiction.. you're bound to get bored too.. sorry that didn't really make sense.. haha :P

singing to the ceiling :>

This was at our third day in HK.
We went to the Hong Kong Academy for Performing Arts and met Kuya Amuer.
He told each of us to perform, so wehen it was my turn to sing
it wasn't loud enough so
he made me lie down and he stepped on my stomach
to make it stronger daw :)) hahaa!

It was pretty hard. notice how my hand gets all stiff :))

I got dizzy after that but it was a cool experience. :>
Thanks to Ate Sa for the video yay :)

Ate ELLE :D

isa pang BP thingg :D

i lovelove jazz! :)) hahaa!

ethnic craze!

LuCa and ObRa style :))

BP-jazz partner thingg

hahaa sorry i dunno the title :D

ALTER_collab

since clyde's in front of me. she's pretty much what you're gonna see
go clyde! :))

Fever-inday badiday! :))

kuya lakhi and ate amie performing.
in our farewell party nung first year.. it was funn! :))

kuuya abs

i made this in my first year =)) hahaa walalang para masaya

commentcomment! minsan niyo lang makita si kuya abs na vain =)) hahaa!

stress: our subtle enemy

honestly how much stress is a person entitled to?

SOUNDS THAT REMOVE STRESS (for me at least)

1. Water dripping, pouring or flowing

                    2.Love songs or whatever songs sung by guys that just melt your heart


                         3. The sound of pen writing on paper

4. Wind blowing
                                              5. Trees/leaves rustling

       6. The sound of breathing steadily 
                                                                               7. Children's soft laughter

8. The sound of crunching leaves
            
             9. Silence :|

                                                                   10. "i'm here."

11. Sand paper.. stapler.. cutting..

             12. Pianos.. saxophones.. violins.. flutes.. bamboo flutes..

          13. Waves hitting the shore   

                                                                14. Enya

    15. Keyboards tapping     
                                                                                     16. harmony



It's time to destress people!!


FIND A FRIGGIN WAY!!!

myy past life.. ?

I got this from ate wence andjust thought i'd try it out.. hahaa

Your past life diagnosis:

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I don't know how you feel about it, but you were male in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Hungary around the year 800. Your profession was that of a map maker, astrologer, astronomer.

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Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
Timid, constrained, quiet person. You had creative talents, which waited until this life to be liberated. Sometimes your environment considered you strange.

---

The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
Your main lesson is to develop magnanimity and a feeling of brotherhood. Try to become less adhered to material property and learn to take only as much, as you can give back.

---

Do you remember now?


**nope i don't.. i just realized something though.. so does that mean ate michelle and i had the same past life? hahaa woopsie. :))

MONDAY NA PO ANG ALTER! :D

dress to impress people! maging feeler kung feeler! it's a street party!! yeah baby!! :D

no idea what to wear? manuod ng bring it on all or nothing! :D and you're all set

bawal KJ.. pawang kasiyahan lamang to! :D

pishawt :D

I'd Rather

[isa siyang dating gawain. 'pag may kantang napagtritripan, ito'y pinopost ko. wala namang kuneksyon ang kantang ito sa buhay ko. wala lang. dati ko pa nais malaman ang kantang ito. at dahil aking nahanap muli. eto na't pinost ko na! ]
I thought sometime alone
was what we really needed
you said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the end
of a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone (alone)
and I tried to find
out if this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoo-oo-oo-oo yeah

And then I met someone
and thought she could replace you
we got a long just fine
we wasted time because she was not you
we had a lot of fun
though we knew we were faking
love was not impressed with our connection they were all lies, all lies
so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
who holds my heart

I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you,
I can only prove the things I say with time,
please be mine,

I'd rather have bad times with (please be mine) you,
than good times with someone else (I know)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (anytime),
than safe and warm by myself (so sure baby)
I'd rather have hard times to gether,
than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart (my heart)

I'd rather have bad times with you (surely),
than good times with someone else (surely)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (oh yeah),
than safe and warm by myself (all by myself)
I'd rather have hard times together,
than to have it easy apart (you know it)
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoooo.....who holds my heart