what happens when you realize that--

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
->  "ugh, i suck." :| HAHA then I smiled =)))

2. How much cash do you have on you?
-> ionno. :P

3. What's a word that rhymes with
"DOOR"?
-> more! gimme gimme =))

4. Favorite planet?
-> Earth yo! :D

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile?
-> no one . =)))

7. What shirt are you wearing?
->my sheep shirt! :D

8. Do you "label" yourself as anything?
-> yes! I ` m a dork! =))))

9. Name the shoe brand you are wearing.
-> Skechers =)))

10. Bright or Dark room?
-> eh?

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey?
-> she ` s LJG and she ` s cool. B-) Hi Nicole! :))

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
-> drooling over Chris Pine =P~

14. What did your last text message you received on your mobile say?
-> "30. Marcky is in the arcade next to the rink."

16. What's a phrase that you say a lot?
-> funkeh. Wait, or maybe Whatthefrick??

17.Who told you he/she loved you last?
-> Either daddy or mommy =)))

21. Favorite age you have been so far?
-> 16 has taught me VERY interesting lessons. both fun and painful ones. =))

22. Your worst enemy?
-> probably myself. =)))) HAHA nah I don ` t know. :P

23. Current image on your desktop?
-> my slippers and shades. :P

24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
->  "Yeah they should" =))) HAHA

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
-> a million bucks. Imma buy wings, make em, sell em, then make more moolah =)))

26. Do you like someone?
-> YES :">

27.what was the last song you listened to?
-> Love Like This - Natasha Bedingfield. Profile song sarry. :P

28. If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, would you jump in front of the bullet?
-> Yes. Ilovemydaddy. :>

29. If you could punch one person in your life right now, who would it be?
-> HAHA do you really want to know? >:) HAHA majorfriends, I` m not thinking of him. amaazing :-j

30. What is the closest object to your left foot?
-> the chair :))

Save Our Souls.

This year ` s Dulaang Sipat-Lawin is composed of 21 members.
We ` ve got 15 girls and six boys. kay SIX BOYS. :|
There are six in our batch and we ` re all girls.

So we need help, suggestions of plays that we could use for our graduating recital
wherein there are MORE girls than guys. HAHA all six of us have already played guys in
the previous recitals and since we ` re all girls, we ` re very into Feminism yeah. =))

So yeah, we ` ve got options but if anyone knows of any plays that has more women than men in it, please let us know.
We just need as many options as possible. Thank you. :D

PS.
Ma ` am Lala wants us to do A Midsummer Night ` s Dream but it would be nice if we could present to her other possibilities. I see no harm in trying. :) As of now, we don ` t have a thesis adviser and STILL a theater coordinator. HELP :'(

Clyde lip syncs to Chip Skylark`s My Shiny Teeth and Me. :>

What can I say, benta si Clyde e! :D HAHA
bravo bravo :>

Shallah was Punk`d

Using the same recording, we decided to trick our El Presidente. :>
Shallah, napakalikot mo. =)))) HAHA

Clyde and Ayesha - Something Stupid

Isang gabi nang wala kaming magawa.
All I can say is, woah, HILARIOUS. YOU MUST WATCH IT. =))
Naglip sync sila tapos ayan, naging mga lesbyana =)))))
Because I love them, their boylets don ` t see it. :>
This video is for DSL members, LJG and other selected people. :>

Ugh. Survey.

1. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach
W
hen I was on my way to Makiling last Monday :)))


2. What did you dream of last night?
I don` t remember.

3. Who is the friend/s you can count on the most?

My loves, Majorbatchmates. and my batchmates :)

4. Where was your first kiss with your current significant other? If you're single where was your first kiss with your most recent significant other?
in front of some random store. Echosero ka. :))))
 
5. Last time you kissed someone and who? Must be a someone you have feelings for.
Um, months ago. Ano` ng kiss yan? Echosero ka talaga. :)))))

6.What is something you've learned about yourself recently?
According to the 37 tips, I ` m well prepared enough to gain confidence in taking the UPCAT. But I still need to hurdle some stages daw. :))

7. Do you like anyone?
I think i like someone. :"> But there ` s something wrong. :))

8. Do you know anyone who is engaged?
Ate Pam! :D

9. What's your favorite number?
Eight :)

10. Who was the last person to make you cry?
In my dream, it was Ma'am Naty. :| HAHA but I think it was Steph nung April.

11. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
Yes

12. When was the last time you cried?
I think it was last April

13. What is one thing you miss about your past?
the feeling of giddyness I guess? :)) Lage namang ganun e

14. What is one thing you've learned about life?

Magulo. :|

15. Are you jealous of anyone?
Envious siguro. :))

16. Is anyone jealous of you?
i don`t think so.

17. Has a friend ever used you?
....

18. Has anyone recently told you that they like you more than as a friend?
Not those words. :))

19. Who was the last person you drove with?
The whole frickin family :))))

20. What are you looking forward to?

Monday! :D well not really :)))

21. How are you today?
Semi-desperate. :|

22. Do you prefer "sensitive boys" or "tough guys"?
both. :))

23. Are you currently single?
iloveit! ;D

24. How many things in your past do you regret?

I don`t really know if I should regret those things. :))

25. Do you have a best friend?
yes :D

26. Have you ever kissed two people in one night?
In family reunions =))) HAHA

27. Who was the last person you hugged?
Steph!!! :D

28. Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't have them?
yes. :| HAHA

29. If you could change anything about your past, what would you change?

I ` d love to change alatta things. But then I just wonder how it would affect the future. :-?

30. Have you ever felt like killing somebody?
yes. :|

31. Do you like your life?
Yes

32. Has one of your friends ever stabbed you in the back?
I think it ` s part of life? :))

33. Did you forgive them?
..?

34. Who is your best friend?
claudia

35. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
More girlies=)))

36. How long have you had Friendster?

since November 2003. demmit. :| HAHA I don`t use it much anymore though

37. Has anyone ever cheated on you?
I really can`t tell if you consider it cheating =))

38. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?

as in slapped like seriously? Nope :)

39. If so why?
acting. :|

40. What is some of your biggest fears of your life?
Death of loved ones and failure and being alone.

41. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
I think so.

42. Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
before yeah. :|



Where's number 43 and 44?

45. Have you ever had a good feeling about something and it turned out you were right?
Yep.

46. What's the largest age difference between yourself and someone you have dated? Who?
One year? =)) AHAHA my dating thing isn`t really wide. :| HAHA!

47. Have you ever dated/fooled around with a co-worker?
no.

50. Do you believe in love?
Yep.

Janine was Punk`d =))

HAHA okay wala lang.
Karen pretended to talk to "another girl" of her boyfriend
and Nin was our victim. :))
sorry malabo, I was trying not to make it
obvious that I was taking a video of her. :))))

Thanks for being a good sport Nin :)

it ` s tomorrow!

deym words aren ` t enough to say here how nervous i feel right now for tomorrow.
i swear! i ` m cursed with worrying too much so it adds up to all the anxious-ness i ` m feeling. it ` s crazy. but i guess i ` m just afraid that i wouldn ` t be able to live up to the name of the fourth years in Makiling. there ` s just too much expectations and it drives me crazy! well, all those who have gone before us have said that Makiling life is fast. well, i ` ve always thought that life alone is fast so there ` s no surprise there i guess.

i hope at the end of this year we get to do what is expected of us and more. who wouldn ` t want to graduate from the mountain knowing that they deserve it right? i don ` t know about the others but I definitely do. here ` s to a rocking schoolyear.

wish me luck. ;;)

♥empty.

You know what, I can't tell how I feel right now.
People who know about what happened a while back ask if I'm over it and I can honestly say now that I feel much better now. Frankly, after all those times when I found myself feeling miserable and having tears endlessly falling down, one morning I suddenly realized that I was tired of crying. All the wonderings just left me drained and weak. It was at that state of emotion did I realize that he was just never worth it.

When I gave my yes, everything that happened after that was a first for me and I was nervous. I didn't know if what I did was enough or right but nonetheless, I did what I thought was right. We only saw each other once and he had to leave. It was hard but I knew all along that it would be, however, I believed that I was going to pull through. I knew that I could make things last. I was right. Everything was perfect. We talked everyday. Sure I missed him but I knew I could handle it. I had all the strength in the world to keep it going but I missed one tiny detail in my perfect little equation, him. When he left for the country we both knew the challenge was harder now. Communicating with him was tough, and suddenly our talks became less frequent. I thought that it was because we were both busy so I let it pass. It was one day when I thought that he could actually be with another girl there and get away with it. I would never find out. That night, I saw an old magazine issue on my bed. Before going to sleep I read through it and came across an article on how to survive a breakup. When I finished reading it, I wondered to myself on when that article would come in handy for me. Who would have thought that it was going to be at that night. He texted me that night and ended it. I was shocked. Tears just kept on pouring that night and the next day and I guess that so far was the lowest point in my life. I kept on asking myself why and I just couldn't believe it.

A couple of months have passed since that incident and everything is still clear in my head. So clear yet a very distant memory. A lot has happened. Weeks after our breakup I found out that all the things he told me that night were mere BS. Oh how I wished he just told me that he fell for another girl. It would've been a lot easier. I felt so stupid and worthless. Wasn't I worth an explanation? A real explanation? I couldn't understand why he spared me from the truth. Hiding her from me just made everything worse.

I feel better now, believe me. I'm over the whole thing. I mean the girl he fell in love with left him after a month too, so you could say it put a smile on my face. I said that I feel better not because of that of course! I just do because I ended up feeling thankful about the whole thing for it gave me strength and a reason to say that I don't live a perfect life as opposed to what most people think of me. It helped me become stronger too because I feel confident that in the future, when someone else comes along, I have a better idea of how to handle things now. I won't be believing every single promise he lets go of. I learned that boys can say anything and feel so strongly about it but it's still possible for him to lose those feelings. It's better to just say uh huh and not let it sink in. Believe me.

So, I seem happy right? How could I say that I don't know how I feel right now? Well, there's a simple answer to it. He was my first love. I was thirteen when I met him. I didn't like him at first but he had this certain habit of texting me and sitting beside me at every opportunity he gets. Eventually, I started liking him too. A lot. It was one day when my friend told me that I loved him. I was fourteen. Well you see, I didn't believe that love was possible for people our age. We lacked enough emotional maturity for people to regard it as serious so I never took it seriously. So I ignored what my friend told me and said that I didn't. Our little thing ended because I guess he got tired of waiting. It was only a year after did I start questioning my own theory and well, I ended up deciding that I did love him. After that realization, I knew I've missed my chance and sort of forgot about him believing that if we were meant to be together it would happen. Fast forward to another year and we found ourselves talking to each other almost every night again like what we used to do. I saw myself falling again, and that time I knew that I was gonna let him know how I felt. Opportunity came and I seized it and I couldn't have been any happier. I discovered a new feeling because of him. A different kind of love that couldn't be given by my friends or family. It felt amazing to be someone's number one. It was a kind of bliss that I knew at that moment that I couldn't get from anyone else. I gave my heart to him. That is why letting go was extremely hard because I knew I had to fight to get my heart back. It was a war only I could battle and in the end, I was able to come home with my heart, yet it wasn't complete anymore. He had it and I couldn't get it back.

I have gotten over him. I am sure of it. I no longer love him but I will always care for him. After that incident, I tried my best to forget him but then I just gave up and realized that I just couldn't forget him because he taught me a very valuable lesson. I stopped trying after that. I don't think our paths will cross anymore because he's done too much damage. He stole my heart and broke it. Here I am putting the pieces back together but it's alright because I learn a little bit more about myself everytime I put two pieces together. I learned that it was my love for myself that helped me stop loving him for I knew that I didn't deserve the pain I was feeling. I wasn't supposed to feel that way so I stopped.

I have two emotions to work with, that's why I couldn't say how I feel. I don't want to love him nor hate him because neither would help me. I guess the safest answer would be that I feel empty. Well, it's only in that department do I feel empty but let me tell you that my life is pretty full of love from God my family and friends and as far as I'm concerned right now, those are things that matter to me the most.

Because I was tagged by Mae.

Tag-y things are really one of the best ways to kill time =))

and so I'll help Megumi Acorda (bwahaha), Clyde Enriquez, Ayesha Sarapuddin, Steph Leido, Ysa Calinawan, Andee Salegon, Aira del Pilar and Cassey Lee kill their time too. =))

RULES

[x] People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question they dislike with a new question formulated  by themselves. Tag 8 people. Those who are tagged cannot refuse.
[x] These 8 people must state who they were tagged by. You cannot tag the person who tagged you. Continue this game by sending this to 8 other people.

QUESTIONS

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
~> I'd go :| and then Aray. =))

2. If the person tagging you loves you, what will you do/say?
~> Mae! I love you too! =)) HAHA

3. What's your take on the same-sex marriages?
~> It's their  life not mine. :) Go be happy =))

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
~>  Yeah I am. I always wonder. :))

5. What do you think about emo people?
~> They're very emotional. Duh. Emo people are okay.  Just not those that are overly emo. It doesn't seem real. Sorry =))

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone else?
~>  Neither is a blessing without the other choice. :)

7. If the person you like doesn't accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?
~> That's harsh=)) Doesn't accept talaga? Well  then that person isn't even worth liking =))

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
~> Just keep on secretly liking him. While I wish =)) it's not like I'm gonna ruin their relationship or something! =)) HAHAH
 

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?
~> Yeah :))

10. What do you want most in life?
~> Contentment and bliss. :)

11. Is being tagged fun?
~> Uh. It's okay =))

12. Who do you want at your side right now?
~> A lot of people =))

13. Who is currently the most important person to you?
~> My family and friends :)

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
~> Mae is a cool friend! I love her clothes and I love hanging out with her. Sexaay pa. :)

15. What song makes you cry?
~>  I can cry to any slow love song if I wanted to =))

16. If the person you secretly like doesn't recognize you, what would you do/how will you react?
~> Wow, he sucks. Oh well. =))

17. Would you give your all in a relationship?
~> No. But I'd give whatever the other person deserves :>

18. If you fall in love with 2 persons simultaneously, who would you pick?
~> Torn between two lovers, feeling like a fool.. HAHA I'll tell you when that happens =))

19. What type of friends do you like?
~> I like my friends :) HAHA
 

20. If you played a prank on someone, and s/he fell for the trick, what will you do?
~> I'd hide my laughter =)) when he/she laughs I'll laugh too. When he/she is pikon, I'll run and hide. Or maybe just say sorry =))

I will find you.

I'm really annoyed. :|

I have like less than two weeks left for my summer and I have to start looking for my stuff again that I need for school. (After the end of every schoolyear I kinda just choose to leave them lying around 'til I start needing them for the next schoolyear) Well anyway, my searching is kinda starting and at 11 PM I am unusually going up and down the stairs of my house retracing my steps trying to figure out where I last used these things. Right now I don't really need them but the thought that I just can't remember is driving me to my ends! :|

Ugh the house is quiet already and the glowing miracle which most may refer to as a laptop was sitting pretty at the table staring at me as I frantically start up and down the staircase telling me to do otherwise and just sit in front of it and type instead.

Wow. I guess it's done its magic because I've just written a blog now. Amazing really. :|
I must find them. I will find you. :|

A countdown to one.

Ten things you want to say to ten different people
(okay I'm choosing REALLY RANDOM people)

1. Let's make this last year rock. We can do it. :)

2. I hope the next one would be like you. Don't think of it that way =)) HAHA cool friend and you guys rock together. She's so lucky. Don't ever hurt her coz I love her. :>

3. I'm here oh. Don't you see? =)) I'm so crazy! It's weird too especially since I've seen you only for a few times.

4. Come back here! I miss  hanging out with you!  Panlalait and all. :>

5. Are you teaching us again? PLEASE DO!!!! WE NEED YOU!!!!!!!

6. Can you like, retire now? please?

7. You are so immature! You don't deserve her. I don't like you for her anyore. :| and what the heck is your problem? Aren't you over it already?

8. You will always have a piece of it. I gave it to you e. :) Thank you so much.

9.  Are you seriously going to leave us? Why aren't you telling us? How could you?


10. Thank you for teaching me how to approach him in that manner. I feel that I've improved and have come a pretty long way since 3 years ago. YOU ROCK ateh! :))

Nine things about yourself

1. I easily get so bored of my hair. Sometimes I wish I could make it grow upon command  so I could cut it and have a new hairstyle =))
2. I love eating DARK CHOCOLATES. :)
3. I hardly shop but I have a lot of clothes =)) I get my cousins' clothes :))
4. I wanna learn how to dance good :P
5. I cry at the weirdest moments =))
6. I LOVE movies!!!!! :D I swear I do. :)
7. I can eat mixed food. You know like those stuff at games and contests but I'm very picky when it comes to food =))
8. I stay in front of the laptop all day. I can. :| 8-| HAHA
9. I love to travel!!! :P~

Eight ways to win my heart

1. DON'T MAKE PROMISES YOU CAN'T KEEP. Better yet, avoid them or just don't make them.
2. Be funny and spontaneous =))
3. Don't be boring. HAHA sorry I love long, fun and meaningful conversations.
4. Major creativity and wit.
5. Being true.
6. Having a heart melting voice and entrancing eyes =)) HAHA!
7. Write tons of letters :) Pero siyempre hindi flood no :))
8. Being there :)) chos.

I just realized that these are just what I wish would happen. =))
I'm a girl so there's really no sure way. =)) What I listed here is what I think. for now.

Seven things that cross your mind a lot

1. The heat. :|
2. School.
3. si ........ =))
4. College Entrance Tests.
5. RITA. :|
6. Life. :|
7. Myself in the future.

Six things you wish you never did

1. saying "O ano, ___ na?" =)) HAHAHA should've waited a little more
2. staying awake in the afternoon when I was younger. :P
3. going under the pool to get any toy i want =))
4. denying that truth.
5. not continuing the violin lessons I was supposed to have
6. saying a long text I wrote months ago in that way.

Five things you first notice physically in the opposite sex

1. eyes
2. face
3. height
4. smile
5. and i guess the body

Four favorite foods

1. cream puff
2. sour cream flavored fries
3. Lindt Truffles Dark :P~
4. popcorn :D

Three things you want to do before you die

1. Go around the world
2. Skydive
3. find contentment in life! :D

Two smileys that describe your life

1. :))
2. :D

One confession

1. I'm really afraid. :| HAHA (nevermind the haha) =))

*got it from Mae :)*