ANG buhay [eto na. talagang Tagalog]

Matagal na nang nagsimula ang mundo at kasing dami na siguro ng mga bituin ang mga beses na tinanong ng tao kung ano ang buhay. Ano nga ba ang buhay? Nang iniharap ang tanong na ito sa akin, ako’y napatigil at napaisip ng lubusan. Maaari niyong sabihin na nabaliw rin ako dahil sa ikinatagal kong paninirahan sa mundong ito, marami nang kahulugan ang aking nalaman. Dahil ito’y napakarami, hindi ko alam kung ano ang paniniwalaan sapagkat punung-puno ng talinhaga ang halos lahat ng aking nalamang kahulugan. Yung tipong madadala talaga ang tao na para bang isa siyang malaking rebelasyon. Sa dami ng mga kahulugang ito, mahirap talagang pumili ng isa! Pumasok din sa isip ko na iba mag-isip ang mga tao kaya’t sa huli, nasa sa atin ang pagbibigay ng kahulugan sa simple ngunit komplikadong tanong na ito. Matagal ako nakatitig sa kawalan at aking napagdesisyunan na hindi ko talaga kayang dumikit sa isang paniniwala lamang kaya sana’y hayaan nalang akong sabihin ang lilan sa aking mga nararamdaman at naiisip tuwing nadadaanan ko ang tanong na ito.

Para sa akin, ang buhay ay parang isang malaking timbang. ‘Pag may magandang pangyayari, kailangang maging balanse kaya’t magkakaroon din ng di-kasing ganda na pangyayari pagkatapos. O ‘di kaya’y baliktad. Kahit ano man ang mauna, ganun umiikot ang mundo at kahit ang pinakamayaman o pinakamakapangyarihang tao sa mundo ay walang magagawa para labanan ito. Ito’y kailangang tanggapin ng mga taong naninirahan sa mundong ito. Masasabi ko rin na ang buhay natin ay punung-puno ng pagtutuklas ng kaalaman. Hindi nagkakaroon ng araw kung saan wala tayong bagong natututunan. Ang pag diskubre natin sa mga bagong bagay araw-araw ay tumutulong sa pagunlad ng ating pagkatao.

Hindi tayo ginawa ng Diyos para maging dekorasyon lamang sa mundo Niya. Ang ating pamamalagi dito ay may dahilan. Iyon sa tingin ko ang layon ng buhay. Minsa’y ginawa tayo ng Diyos para magampanan ang papel natin. Para gawin ang bagay na tinadhanang gagawin natin. Walang makakatakas. Iba-iba ang binigay sa ating tungkulin at tayong lahat ay inatasang gawin ito. Tila ang simple, hindi ba? Nagiging komplikado ang simpleng gawaing ito dahil kailangan nating hintayin ang araw na malaman natin ang papel na ito. Hindi agad-agad nalalaman ng lahat ang kanyang papel sa sandali ng ating kapanganakan. Kailangang pagtiyagaan. Hinatayin.

Dahil nabigyan ko na ng kahulugan ang napakakomplikadong salitang ito, sa pagharap ng huling tanong, ako’y nag-isip at nag-isip na parang wala nang bukas. Aking napagtanto na dahil ang buhay ay sadyang maikli, nais kong mabuhay na pinaniniwalaan na ang bawat araw ko ay ang huli. Mahilig akong tumitig sa kawalan at balikan ang mga nangyari sa akin dati. Sa mga panahong ito, maraming mga “paano kung” na tanong ang lumilitaw at ilang beses ko sinasabi sa sarili ko na “dapat ginawa ko ‘to!" o “dapat ito ang pinili kong desisyon, hindi iyon”. Ako’y laging naiinis sa sarili ko ‘pagkat parang lumalabas na maraming bagay na nangyari dati na hindi ko binigyang halaga noon. Lagi akong nagkakaroon ng mga hindi kanais-nais na mga emosyon tuwing ako’y nagbabalik memorya at sa totoo lang, ako’y pagod na. Dahil dito, napagdesisyunan ko nang iwasan ang mga masasamang emosyon na ito sa pamamagitan ng pagbibigay ng halaga sa lahat ng bagay na nangyayari sa akin. Hindi naman ako makasisiguro na mangyayari ang mga iyon uli. Mabuti nang maging sigurado kaysa magsisi sa huli hindi ba?

Binigyan tayo ng isang pagkakataon ng Diyos para mabuhay kung saan maaaring gawin ang kahit anong naisin natin! Gumawa ng mga magagandang bagay at pagkakamali narin. Sa pagkakataong ito na ibinigay sa akin ng Diyos, nais kong sulitin ang lahat. Itama ang mga mali o ‘di kaya maliin ang mga ginawang tama. Maging baliw na kung baliw, tanga kung tanga basta sa kahuli-hulihan ng lahat, magagawa kong ngumiti habang iniisip na tama ang lahat ng pagkakamali ko at nagamit ko ang isang pagkakataong ito ng lubusan! Ito ang aking bagong ambisyon sa buhay. Abangan nalang natin kung magagampanan ko ito.

when riding the Octopus

took a video while riding the Octopus.
okay, we look really stupid here haaha but it was funn :)) hahaha!!!

Switchfoot - The Economy of Mercy

got this from Clyde. ang ganda ng pictures nakakabaliww :) ahah

SEMBREAK o7

Sembreak
starts: October 19, 2007
ends: November 4, 2007
duration: 17 days

INTRO:
Due to past experiences, i've realized that i would spend most of my time during our sembreak lazing like a rug in front of the TV doing totally worthless things..

RESOLUTION:
My resolution is to make this sembreak totally worth it by doing productive things EVERYDAY

BUT:
i'm a human being prone to mistakes so i give myself four days at most to being a bum. :)) haha

AND THE EXPERIMENT BEGINS!

♥Oct19-uploaded photos and videos for multiply, blogged, photoshopped, downloaded songs, chatted and texted
♥Oct20-photoshopped and uploaded it to multiply, started this blog, took pictures, downloaded karaoke songs, watched stardust
♥Oct21-read harry potter (finally!), learned HTML codes (oh God i'm so lame), fixed my multiply, looked for eheads pics for ayesha, found an amazing pic photoshopped it and sent it to ayesha's multiply ,bought a perfume, took a picture of myself with a dress in BAYO (omigosh it was soo nice! ü), had a footspa and haircutt (neww look :P), worked out iTunes, took more pictures
♥Oct22-HAPPY BIRTHDAY jere and k jayson, downloaded songs, fixed my ipod
♥Oct23-went to Claret fair, fixed clyde's site, fixed my ipod
♥Oct24-went to megamall, did A LOT of things! (see pictures)
♥Oct25-went totally harry potter mode, fixed my room, internet
♥Oct26-went to the MC fair, uploaded pics, watched a movie, fixed my ipod
♥Oct27-went totally harry potter mode, went to cousins' crib, started the AS homework :|, made chika galore!! :D
♥Oct28-happy birthday ayesha! :D, watched Krissy perform
♥Oct29-voted, shopping the whole day! NEW shoes wee :), went Potter mode
♥Oct30-went potter mode, finished essay, internet, MEtrowalk :D
♥Oct31-Alabang trick or treating, won, took pictures, edited stuff
♥Nov1-Amadeo sleep over, bummed :| 
♥Nov2-Serendra, started exam :|
♥Nov3-finished exam, watched movie
♥Nov4-fixed room.

AFTERMATH
It's November 5 and my sembreak is officially over :| i was pretty productive i must say! i've accomplished a lot. I'm tearing over the fact [well not really] that Hell SEM is fast approaching .Ohmigosh i could just imagine all the work being thrown at us like dirty laundry. I'm starting a countdown til Christmas break! ohmigosh i can't waaait! Til then.. i'll be thin again :| greaat.. more sleepless nights for me.. and more seeing of.. unbearable people.. i cringe at the idea.. well that's life. you must be probably dealing with more sh*t riight now than i am. Let's feel each other's pain.. :|


At least i got one hell of a niight in YM today! happy happy! 3 in 1 niight baby!! All good news from 3!! YEAAH babyy!!

my idea of a crush

okay. though weird at times.. i think i still have enough credibility to state that i have crushes. countless crushes. it is --as the oldies say-- oh so normal for people at this age. now what i accept to be entirely weird with me is when i start having crushes on people that fit my standards really rightly, i go crazy head over heels in luv.! take note: luv. not love but luv. it's not a stupid text lingo but simply it i define it as: liking someone so much to the point of being really crazy but not loving someone enough to the point that one is willing to be a slave of that person.! (okay maybe i'm exaggerating :)) but i guess you know what i mean)

crazy clip with my cousins

this was done like four years ago. okay we look real stupid here :)) hahaa!

the wait

Here we are existing...

waiting...

most of us don't know what we are waiting for...

we are all as innocent as little girls...


waiting.

lost in the dark.

most don't know what they're waiting for yet..

but nevertheless.. we are all still existing.

just waiting...

waiting.

for the right time.

number ko-- 09066337007 wow infairness i like itt :))

You opened this so you have to do it.
Put the number representing what you are depending on the question. At the end it will look like a phone number so then put it in the subject line. You must do this or you will get bad luck for one entire year.

First, put a 0927-...
[you may change '27' into something else. Depending on your REAL number]

Here's your new digits:
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1st number, put what you are.
1- gay
2- taken
3- single and what ever happens, happens
4- single
5- happily taken and love that person
6- single but like someone :P
7- taken and confused
8- single and like someone, but can't have them
9- have lost all hope
0- bi
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2nd number, put your current Mood
1- Nervous
2- Bored
3- Confused
4- Just fine
5- Sad
6- Hyper
7- Sleepy
8- Angry
9- In Pain
0- Happy
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3rd number is The color of your shirt
1- Black
2- Pink
3- Red
4- Orange
5- Blue
6- Green
7- Yellow
8- White/Gray/brown
9- Camo
0- none
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4th Number is the month you were born in
1- Jan. or Feb.
2- March
3- april
4- May
5- Jun. or Jul
6- Aug.
7- Sep.
8- Oct.
9- Nov.
0- Dec.

5th Number is your Favorite Color
1- Black
2- White
3- Pink
4- Blue
5- Green
6- Red
7- Orange
8- Yellow
9- Purple
0- Other
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Next Number is your favorite sport
1- Football
2- Basketball
3- Tennis
4- American Football
5- Rodeo
6- Volleyball
7- Touch football
8- Track
9- Rugby
0- Hate Sport --more of i just don't feel it :))
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Last number is your Sign
1- Aries
2- Virgo
3- Sagittarius
4- Leo
5- Cancer or Capricorn
6- Taurus
7- Libra
8- Aquarius
9- Gemini
0- Scorpio or Pisces

si luis naman nainggit. :)) haha!

*pero nakakatawa kasi while i was taking this video food came and i let go of the cam and totally forgot that it was still recording :)) aaaahhaa! random fact:))

si Jeiel. period. :))

til they take my heart away-michie and patti :D

point of view

i tried taking a video while skating :)) haha it was soo hard!! i ended up taking a video of my shoes.. mkaay :))