Wala sa mga intensyon ko ang manakit.
Hangga't maaari, ayokong manakit dahil ayoko ring masaktan.
Hindi ko alam kung manghihingi pa ako ng patawad dahil nakailan na ako.
Aking sinikap ipaintindi saiyo na mali lang ang pagkasabi ko sa bagay bagay.
Ni hindi ko nga nasabi ang nais kong sabihin e.
Nagaalala talaga ako, bakit ayaw mong maniwala?
Ako pa? Na mahal na mahal ko ang klase natin ang may walang pakialam?
Bakit ayaw mo akong bigyan ng pagkakataon?
Hindi mo parin ba naiintindihan?
Maaaring praning lang siguro ako at mali ang timing.
Dahil doon pasensya na. Patawad.
Yun lang naman ang pwede kong sabihin diba?
Nasaiyo kung gusto mo akong intindihin, basta alam ko na wala akong kasalanan at sinubukan kong iklaro lahat.
Grabe ang hirap pala 'pag ganito. Ayoko nito. Ayokong ayoko.
Sabado, Marso 29, 2008
Dear.....
I was inspired by a former classmate that's why I decided to do this as well. As of now, I don't intend this to be read by anyone because I feel that I am not ready. Someday, however, is another issue and I choose not to think about it first.
It's been two months and I don't know how to describe how I'm feeling for you at this moment. I don't know if I could say that I am over you because well, sometimes at the most random times I suddenly remember that you once loved me. I don't know if I could say that I am not over you because I want to be over with you and I don't think my heart needs more pain.
It's so unfair though. I've assessed that I don't fall in love that easily and what annoys me is the fact is at the moment I finally decide to dive in and take the risk of hitting my heart in the pool of emotions, it happens. Why must fate hurt me so? Why? Why is it at the instance I finally try it out, I get hurt? He shouldn't have tried knocking on my heart if he was just going to put his foot in and then out again. I don't think i even had the chance to feel the love I was hoping i could get from him after nearly two years of hoping.
Why is it that when he decided to break up with me, he didn't tell me about his eff'd up girlfriend? Why didn't he just save the crap and tell me? Why did he have to say all the shitty things saying that he isn't good enough for me bla bla bla. What the hell was that for? You were already on you way out of my heart but then you decided to keep the door open making me think that someday we'll be together again. Why say all those bull shit? I thought we had a great breakup. I was effin wrong. Sure you told me and didn't prolong it, but what the hell? Weeks after I find out that you actually left an effin testimonial for her saying that you miss her on the day of our first month? January 15 was the day you were itching to reach. "Oh I can't wait for our first month..." bla bla bla a load of crap.
Okay fine, we didn't have much happening since we were only together for a month but it was more than that for me! I've loved you ever since December 2005 and here i waited, waited for the chance to finally tell you how i feel but when the time came, you made everything amazing for me! But while I was swimming in that realm of magic getting ready to dream about you and me, you suddenly text and drain all the water from the pool I was in. You punch an enormous hole through it leaving it empty in less than a minute. There you leave me dumbstruck, not knowing what had hit me wondering if what just happened was part of a dream or not.
I am however thankful though.
Thank you for showing me that love can happen when you're young. Before I feel for you, I thought that serious loving only happened when you're older. It was a shame I realized it months too late.
Thank you for teaching me how to get hurt. It's something everyone must go through and I'm glad I experienced it at a young age. At least next time I'll be dealing it in a better way.
It's been two months and I don't know how to describe how I'm feeling for you at this moment. I don't know if I could say that I am over you because well, sometimes at the most random times I suddenly remember that you once loved me. I don't know if I could say that I am not over you because I want to be over with you and I don't think my heart needs more pain.
It's so unfair though. I've assessed that I don't fall in love that easily and what annoys me is the fact is at the moment I finally decide to dive in and take the risk of hitting my heart in the pool of emotions, it happens. Why must fate hurt me so? Why? Why is it at the instance I finally try it out, I get hurt? He shouldn't have tried knocking on my heart if he was just going to put his foot in and then out again. I don't think i even had the chance to feel the love I was hoping i could get from him after nearly two years of hoping.
Why is it that when he decided to break up with me, he didn't tell me about his eff'd up girlfriend? Why didn't he just save the crap and tell me? Why did he have to say all the shitty things saying that he isn't good enough for me bla bla bla. What the hell was that for? You were already on you way out of my heart but then you decided to keep the door open making me think that someday we'll be together again. Why say all those bull shit? I thought we had a great breakup. I was effin wrong. Sure you told me and didn't prolong it, but what the hell? Weeks after I find out that you actually left an effin testimonial for her saying that you miss her on the day of our first month? January 15 was the day you were itching to reach. "Oh I can't wait for our first month..." bla bla bla a load of crap.
Okay fine, we didn't have much happening since we were only together for a month but it was more than that for me! I've loved you ever since December 2005 and here i waited, waited for the chance to finally tell you how i feel but when the time came, you made everything amazing for me! But while I was swimming in that realm of magic getting ready to dream about you and me, you suddenly text and drain all the water from the pool I was in. You punch an enormous hole through it leaving it empty in less than a minute. There you leave me dumbstruck, not knowing what had hit me wondering if what just happened was part of a dream or not.
I am however thankful though.
Thank you for showing me that love can happen when you're young. Before I feel for you, I thought that serious loving only happened when you're older. It was a shame I realized it months too late.
Thank you for teaching me how to get hurt. It's something everyone must go through and I'm glad I experienced it at a young age. At least next time I'll be dealing it in a better way.
The Sonnet 116--English
Let me tell you, the two guys you'll be seeing in this video are STRAIGHT
I swear!
comment if you feel like doing so, it's fun anyway. :>
GROUP III
Luis Cabrera- initial singer, actor
Ysa Calinawan- singer, editor, cameradude
Justin Francisco- guitarist, actor
Joy Galinato- costume provider, singer, laptop and light technician
Joelle Yuvienco- singer, cameradude, assistant editor
please
don't let them go. It's just one more year.
Give them another chance. :(
we can't bear to lose them.
please.
MERCY'S ALL WE NEED.
Give them another chance. :(
we can't bear to lose them.
please.
MERCY'S ALL WE NEED.
Biyernes, Marso 28, 2008
pamamaalam
etong video na ito ay tinapos ko na sa araw ng mismong party.
Dahil nagdeliberations ang mga guro, hindi na ako nakahingi ng mensahe sa kanilang lahat.
Para po sainyo ito kung feel niyo pong magsenti. :)
Sabado, Marso 22, 2008
emo time :))
Found something new. HAHA emo but whatever. :))
Walang feeler, diko nga alam kung para kanino 'to :)) HAHA
Tell me you know I exist.
Tell me you care.
Tell me you'll put that bandaid over my heart.
Make me melt.
Make me smile.
Make me feel important.
Keep me safe.
Keep me happy.
Keep me here.
don't hurt me
and I'll be yours. :>
Walang feeler, diko nga alam kung para kanino 'to :)) HAHA
Tell me you know I exist.
Tell me you care.
Tell me you'll put that bandaid over my heart.
Make me melt.
Make me smile.
Make me feel important.
Keep me safe.
Keep me happy.
Keep me here.
don't hurt me
and I'll be yours. :>
Miyerkules, Marso 19, 2008
I must stop hurting myself
Here are the texts that are kept in my phone. I thought that reading it would be okay but then i realized that i only just get hurt missing the feeling and him more. his stupid promises are here and I want to stop thinking of reminding those to him. This shall be for memory's sake because someday, I will love again. Someone who will be here for me.
12.09.07
hey dear, hahaha... just woke up. This is my new globe number by the way. Haha! See you soon. :) -manuel
12.10.07
Finally, have a good night sleep my dear joelle. hahaha you too, rest well. I miss you dear, hahaha. night, see you tomorrow.
12.12.07
what will be good, what? Hahaha... Let's go out dear. I'll treat you for my christmas gift for you. hahaha. But i want to go out one day with you alone, that's if you don't mind. hahaha. So what do you think?
12.13.07
Good night dear joelle. sleep well and have a pleasant morning. nice talking with you, i really am happy being with you again. Can't wait too. oh, well, rest well. And i miss you very much. See you soon.
12.13.07
hey joelle. I just wanted you to sleep a little bit longer now although i still would like to talk to you. You're singing was seriously sweet. I like it very much. Thank you though for singing to me, I do appeciate it. Have a goodnight sleep my joelle. Text me tomorrow when you get up, okay? I miss you so much even though i say (saw) you the other day when i went to makiling. Hahaha. I'm excited to see you na rin tomorrow. hahaha. Alright, rest well. night dear.
12.14.07
i don't know where it came from, Hahaha... all of a sudden that's what came out of my mind, just saying that i miss you. Hahaha. Well, random kung random, random talaga eh. Hehehe.
Yeah doesn't matter if you miss me or not. Hahaha. i'm just telling you my side. Anyways, what's up duck? Hahaha...
Okay dear.goodnight my joelle. sleep well and hope we get a nice day tomorrow. Sweet dreams my dear. See you tomorrow. Hahaha.
12.15.07
hey dear. Wahaha... I can't believe that this day happened. It's like I'ms dreaming. Hahaha. you don't know how happy i am today. hahaha. I thank god that this dream became a reality. I love you very much my joelle dear.
yeah, mahal na mahal kita mahal kong joelle. Me too, hahaha! I'm shocked too.
you'll sleep na. Sorry i just read your message now. Okay dear, thank you also for making this day so special. Grabe, i feel so great today, seriously. I love you my joelle dear. I hope we don't give up. I want to be with you again my dear joelle. Sleep well okay. nd don't forget to pray. I love you.kiss.Mwah! :-*
12.16.07
hey my dear. Rise and shine, i just woke up now. How was your sleep dear? Slept well? One good morning kiss from me, mwah! Love you.
Yeah i know, but i want t hang out with you more than with them. i already saw them naman in the past few days. Hahaha. So yeah.
.....Dear, please don't say that, i will be seeing you soon, i hope. Oh well, i hope you'll love me even though i go to singapore for so long. wala lang.
Okay dear. i don't promise that i will love you. hahaha. Ayan, hehehe but i seriously do love you as well. mwah!
Seriously, can we meet somewhere in UP tonight? I'd be willing to go there... hahaha. Okay, whatever dear. But i'm assuming that you'll also make it to the scholarship grant i have in lasalle. hahaha. Come on dear, if you really want to study there, you'll do everything right? so do it. Mwah! at para, schoolmates tayo. Hahaha and so that i'll see my princess everyday. hahaha. Lol.
Hahaha. you are my girl. Hahaha.
I liked the last one. Hahaha. I weill be that someone who will watch the stars and the moon with you.
I want to fly with you up in the sky where nobody can see us dance together to the music, so close... Hahaha. Impossible na impossible nga to. Hahaha.
Oh nice. Hahaha. Alright dear, goodnight. Hava a pleasant sleep and try to wake up a little bit later this time. hahaha. Mwah! I love you more than you love me, so yeah. Mwah! night dear, sweet dreams. Love you :-*:-*:-*
12.18.07
not really, I will feel like a prince if a princess like you sits beside me. Hahaha. Mwah!
12.19.07
Mwah! I love you200x. Mwah! hahaha. Good morning. Have a longer sleep this time dear. Sleep well. You, pray before you go to bed. God bless you always. Love you very very very much for the last before i sleep. Mwah!:-*
Oh nice. My dear, you make me really miss you. huhu. I seriously feel like crying now just to let everything out, because i really really miss you talaga. That's why low energy ako ngyon. Huhu. I love you my joelle.
12.20.07
Dear, i think i need to go to bed na before i completely fall asleep. So goodnight-morning my dear joelle. Have a good sleep. Rest well. Sweet dreams my beloved dear. Mwah! I love you very very much much. :-* kiss sa lips! :-* so sweet. Mwah!
12.21.07
Yeah, we really should. I don't like saying goodbyes to actually. huhu. But we must because we can't talk all day naman. Hahaha. Dear, i really alo thank god for the both of us being together. I hope god likes the both of us to really be together. Mwah!:-* thank you for accepting me into your life. Kisses, mwah! Mwah! Mwah! Mwah! :-*:-*:-*:-* and hugs. :-) love you very much my dear joelle. Sleep well and goodnight.
Oh yeah. Hahaha. Hope i was there with you now. huhu. Mwah! It makes me really miss you. :-)
12.22.07
Hey dear, i'm so so so lucky that i finally met a girl someone like you. Seriously, you are not this type of girl na you know, go lang ng go. So yeah. I'm so lucky, I hope you stay the same as you are even though you're 18 years old na pero of course be a little bit more of an adult-like na rin. So good night my dear love joelle. Sweet dreams and i love you very much. Mwah! Kiss. Mwah!
Hey dear, just had my haircut. Hahaha. Mwah, i cut it short because you liked it that way. Hahaha. Mwah. What are you doing now my lovely dear?
iloveyoujoelle.
Oh. Just stay away from those smokers dear. yeah, i wish i was there with you now. I could have hugged you the whole night. Mwah! Love you dear. I'm really worried about you now, wala lang. Love you.
No, i also hate you for not being here. I want to be withyou also. Hay,so close but yet so far. Hahaha. Mwah! Love yah!
12.23.07
Dear, good night or good morning. Hahaha. Mwah! I really really really do love you very very very muchies. Hahaha. Mwah! Sleep well dear.
Hey good morning dear. I woke up at 11:30am but i decided to wait for your text message. hahaha. Mwah! I think while i was sleeping, my little boy cousin was touching my phone, so he probably sent that. Hahaha. Mwah! Anyways, i slept soundly and i dreamt of you and me again. Mwah! Have a nice day dear. Love you. :-)
12.24.07
You're really dead asleep. Hahaha. Mwah! I've been trying to wake you up with my calls but it seems that you really are dreaming na. Hahaha. I hope nandyan ako. Mwah! the party hasn't finished yet, but i went home na with my cousins so our employees can enjoy themselves there. Hahaha. So yeah, good morning na lang dear when you wake up. I hope you had a pleasant sleep. Mwah! Miss you so so so much dear, i swear. Hay naku, i don't know what to do in singapore when i am not with you. Huhu. Oh well, cge, love you very muchies. Mwah! Kiss sa lips...:-*
My dear, i love you very much. Wala lang. Mwah!
12.25.07
Oh dear. Merry christmas my love joelle. I really really want to see you na. You don't know how much i really want to be with you now. I want to hug you all day. Mwah! Love ang kisses my dear, good night. Rest well. Mwah!
Hey joelle dear. I just woke up. Hehehe. Mwah! Good afternoon my love and merry merry christmas to you again. Hope you have a fun and exciting day today. Love you very much my joelle.
12.26.07
Yeah. I wanted too talk to you pero i was like shy because we weren't together pa. Hehehe. Oh well, yeah i think this is really a challenge for the both of us. Mwah!
Okay dear. Goodnight to you. Have a pleasant sleep and wishing you a mery christmas and this time, a prosperous new year. Hope everything will go fine. I love you with all my heart my joelle. Mwah! Kiss!:-*
12.27.07
Hahaha. Mwah! Good night dear. Sleep well. I love you very much too. I won't drink a lot naman. Hahaha. Sweetest dreams darling. Mwah! Love yah.
12.28.07
Yes dear, i'm just being who i am. Hahaha. Not pretending to be somebody else that's why they like me. Hahaha. Good night dear. Sleep well. Love you so much my joelle dear. Mwah! :-* wowie misses you.
12.09.07
hey dear, hahaha... just woke up. This is my new globe number by the way. Haha! See you soon. :) -manuel
12.10.07
Finally, have a good night sleep my dear joelle. hahaha you too, rest well. I miss you dear, hahaha. night, see you tomorrow.
12.12.07
what will be good, what? Hahaha... Let's go out dear. I'll treat you for my christmas gift for you. hahaha. But i want to go out one day with you alone, that's if you don't mind. hahaha. So what do you think?
12.13.07
Good night dear joelle. sleep well and have a pleasant morning. nice talking with you, i really am happy being with you again. Can't wait too. oh, well, rest well. And i miss you very much. See you soon.
12.13.07
hey joelle. I just wanted you to sleep a little bit longer now although i still would like to talk to you. You're singing was seriously sweet. I like it very much. Thank you though for singing to me, I do appeciate it. Have a goodnight sleep my joelle. Text me tomorrow when you get up, okay? I miss you so much even though i say (saw) you the other day when i went to makiling. Hahaha. I'm excited to see you na rin tomorrow. hahaha. Alright, rest well. night dear.
12.14.07
i don't know where it came from, Hahaha... all of a sudden that's what came out of my mind, just saying that i miss you. Hahaha. Well, random kung random, random talaga eh. Hehehe.
Yeah doesn't matter if you miss me or not. Hahaha. i'm just telling you my side. Anyways, what's up duck? Hahaha...
Okay dear.goodnight my joelle. sleep well and hope we get a nice day tomorrow. Sweet dreams my dear. See you tomorrow. Hahaha.
12.15.07
hey dear. Wahaha... I can't believe that this day happened. It's like I'ms dreaming. Hahaha. you don't know how happy i am today. hahaha. I thank god that this dream became a reality. I love you very much my joelle dear.
yeah, mahal na mahal kita mahal kong joelle. Me too, hahaha! I'm shocked too.
you'll sleep na. Sorry i just read your message now. Okay dear, thank you also for making this day so special. Grabe, i feel so great today, seriously. I love you my joelle dear. I hope we don't give up. I want to be with you again my dear joelle. Sleep well okay. nd don't forget to pray. I love you.kiss.Mwah! :-*
12.16.07
hey my dear. Rise and shine, i just woke up now. How was your sleep dear? Slept well? One good morning kiss from me, mwah! Love you.
Yeah i know, but i want t hang out with you more than with them. i already saw them naman in the past few days. Hahaha. So yeah.
.....Dear, please don't say that, i will be seeing you soon, i hope. Oh well, i hope you'll love me even though i go to singapore for so long. wala lang.
Okay dear. i don't promise that i will love you. hahaha. Ayan, hehehe but i seriously do love you as well. mwah!
Seriously, can we meet somewhere in UP tonight? I'd be willing to go there... hahaha. Okay, whatever dear. But i'm assuming that you'll also make it to the scholarship grant i have in lasalle. hahaha. Come on dear, if you really want to study there, you'll do everything right? so do it. Mwah! at para, schoolmates tayo. Hahaha and so that i'll see my princess everyday. hahaha. Lol.
Hahaha. you are my girl. Hahaha.
I liked the last one. Hahaha. I weill be that someone who will watch the stars and the moon with you.
I want to fly with you up in the sky where nobody can see us dance together to the music, so close... Hahaha. Impossible na impossible nga to. Hahaha.
Oh nice. Hahaha. Alright dear, goodnight. Hava a pleasant sleep and try to wake up a little bit later this time. hahaha. Mwah! I love you more than you love me, so yeah. Mwah! night dear, sweet dreams. Love you :-*:-*:-*
12.18.07
not really, I will feel like a prince if a princess like you sits beside me. Hahaha. Mwah!
12.19.07
Mwah! I love you200x. Mwah! hahaha. Good morning. Have a longer sleep this time dear. Sleep well. You, pray before you go to bed. God bless you always. Love you very very very much for the last before i sleep. Mwah!:-*
Oh nice. My dear, you make me really miss you. huhu. I seriously feel like crying now just to let everything out, because i really really miss you talaga. That's why low energy ako ngyon. Huhu. I love you my joelle.
12.20.07
Dear, i think i need to go to bed na before i completely fall asleep. So goodnight-morning my dear joelle. Have a good sleep. Rest well. Sweet dreams my beloved dear. Mwah! I love you very very much much. :-* kiss sa lips! :-* so sweet. Mwah!
12.21.07
Yeah, we really should. I don't like saying goodbyes to actually. huhu. But we must because we can't talk all day naman. Hahaha. Dear, i really alo thank god for the both of us being together. I hope god likes the both of us to really be together. Mwah!:-* thank you for accepting me into your life. Kisses, mwah! Mwah! Mwah! Mwah! :-*:-*:-*:-* and hugs. :-) love you very much my dear joelle. Sleep well and goodnight.
Oh yeah. Hahaha. Hope i was there with you now. huhu. Mwah! It makes me really miss you. :-)
12.22.07
Hey dear, i'm so so so lucky that i finally met a girl someone like you. Seriously, you are not this type of girl na you know, go lang ng go. So yeah. I'm so lucky, I hope you stay the same as you are even though you're 18 years old na pero of course be a little bit more of an adult-like na rin. So good night my dear love joelle. Sweet dreams and i love you very much. Mwah! Kiss. Mwah!
Hey dear, just had my haircut. Hahaha. Mwah, i cut it short because you liked it that way. Hahaha. Mwah. What are you doing now my lovely dear?
iloveyoujoelle.
Oh. Just stay away from those smokers dear. yeah, i wish i was there with you now. I could have hugged you the whole night. Mwah! Love you dear. I'm really worried about you now, wala lang. Love you.
No, i also hate you for not being here. I want to be withyou also. Hay,so close but yet so far. Hahaha. Mwah! Love yah!
12.23.07
Dear, good night or good morning. Hahaha. Mwah! I really really really do love you very very very muchies. Hahaha. Mwah! Sleep well dear.
Hey good morning dear. I woke up at 11:30am but i decided to wait for your text message. hahaha. Mwah! I think while i was sleeping, my little boy cousin was touching my phone, so he probably sent that. Hahaha. Mwah! Anyways, i slept soundly and i dreamt of you and me again. Mwah! Have a nice day dear. Love you. :-)
12.24.07
You're really dead asleep. Hahaha. Mwah! I've been trying to wake you up with my calls but it seems that you really are dreaming na. Hahaha. I hope nandyan ako. Mwah! the party hasn't finished yet, but i went home na with my cousins so our employees can enjoy themselves there. Hahaha. So yeah, good morning na lang dear when you wake up. I hope you had a pleasant sleep. Mwah! Miss you so so so much dear, i swear. Hay naku, i don't know what to do in singapore when i am not with you. Huhu. Oh well, cge, love you very muchies. Mwah! Kiss sa lips...:-*
My dear, i love you very much. Wala lang. Mwah!
12.25.07
Oh dear. Merry christmas my love joelle. I really really want to see you na. You don't know how much i really want to be with you now. I want to hug you all day. Mwah! Love ang kisses my dear, good night. Rest well. Mwah!
Hey joelle dear. I just woke up. Hehehe. Mwah! Good afternoon my love and merry merry christmas to you again. Hope you have a fun and exciting day today. Love you very much my joelle.
12.26.07
Yeah. I wanted too talk to you pero i was like shy because we weren't together pa. Hehehe. Oh well, yeah i think this is really a challenge for the both of us. Mwah!
Okay dear. Goodnight to you. Have a pleasant sleep and wishing you a mery christmas and this time, a prosperous new year. Hope everything will go fine. I love you with all my heart my joelle. Mwah! Kiss!:-*
12.27.07
Hahaha. Mwah! Good night dear. Sleep well. I love you very much too. I won't drink a lot naman. Hahaha. Sweetest dreams darling. Mwah! Love yah.
12.28.07
Yes dear, i'm just being who i am. Hahaha. Not pretending to be somebody else that's why they like me. Hahaha. Good night dear. Sleep well. Love you so much my joelle dear. Mwah! :-* wowie misses you.
Biyernes, Marso 14, 2008
dahil ako'y naloloka na sa mga requirements
prom.ise
[prom-is]
To be blunt.
I HATE PROMISES.
What's the f***ing point of it all when in the end if not always they almost usually just get broken? Breaking these promises just leaves the promisee feeling stupid about himself/herself for expecting so much.
They say "Hope for the best, expect the worst." Without promises, people wouldn't expect! Less expectations means less disappointments.
What also annoys me is the fact that when the promiser promises the promisee and the promiser fails to do what he/she has promised, the disappointed promisee doesn't really have much to do but to rub it in the promiser's face saying:
"you promised! you promised!"
okay now seriously, what does that do exactly? /:|
N-O-T-H-I-N-G. nothing.
The promiser just feels guilty and then what's next? In a few days' time, they just start to move on, as if nothing significant happened. More disappointment to the promisee.
Here's what else gets to me! I check my mental record and I realized that I haven't made a promise to a person and broken it (PM me if I have, I'll remove this right away). Why? Well, because I hardly ever make promises. All I'd usually say is, I'll try my best. Less expectations, less disappointments. So I've said that I haven't broken a promise. It's unfair. It's unfair because I've heard a lot of promises and they're usually broken.
*%(%^)%($%$*$!!!!!
What the friggin' hell did I do to deserve it? WHAT? I believe in the Golden Rule. I (almost) always go by it! I don't do unto others what i don't want others to do unto me because
I DON'T WANT OTHERS TO DO WHATEVER THERE IS TO BE DONE UNTO ME!
why? why? why?
That's all i could say. I just don't get it. Is it so hard to say
"I don't promise but I will try." ?
bitches, I've already heard it before. Heck I've actually said it myself before. Why is it so hard?
Lots of angst. HAHA I actually am not sure where it came from. If it came frome *there* or *then* or *here*, I can't tell.
I think it's also because of all these STUPID REQUIREMENTS piling up like ice cream on a cone.
except that it's not even close to ice cream. That's the only simile i could think of right now.
Well, I'm done for now. My friggin' brain is tired. Just tired.
I'm tired of school, I'm tired of what's happening, I'm tired of feeling bad
I'm tired of being disappointed.
dis.ap.point.ed
[dis-uh-point-id]
-adj
[prom-is]
- A declaration assuring that one will or will not do something; a vow.
- Something promised.
- Indication of something favorable to come; expectation: a promise of spring in the air.
- Indication of future excellence or success: a player of great promise
To be blunt.
I HATE PROMISES.
What's the f***ing point of it all when in the end if not always they almost usually just get broken? Breaking these promises just leaves the promisee feeling stupid about himself/herself for expecting so much.
They say "Hope for the best, expect the worst." Without promises, people wouldn't expect! Less expectations means less disappointments.
What also annoys me is the fact that when the promiser promises the promisee and the promiser fails to do what he/she has promised, the disappointed promisee doesn't really have much to do but to rub it in the promiser's face saying:
"you promised! you promised!"
okay now seriously, what does that do exactly? /:|
N-O-T-H-I-N-G. nothing.
Here's what else gets to me! I check my mental record and I realized that I haven't made a promise to a person and broken it (PM me if I have, I'll remove this right away). Why? Well, because I hardly ever make promises. All I'd usually say is, I'll try my best. Less expectations, less disappointments. So I've said that I haven't broken a promise. It's unfair. It's unfair because I've heard a lot of promises and they're usually broken.
*%(%^)%($%$*$!!!!!
What the friggin' hell did I do to deserve it? WHAT? I believe in the Golden Rule. I (almost) always go by it! I don't do unto others what i don't want others to do unto me because
I DON'T WANT OTHERS TO DO WHATEVER THERE IS TO BE DONE UNTO ME!
why? why? why?
That's all i could say. I just don't get it. Is it so hard to say
"I don't promise but I will try." ?
bitches, I've already heard it before. Heck I've actually said it myself before. Why is it so hard?
Lots of angst. HAHA I actually am not sure where it came from. If it came frome *there* or *then* or *here*, I can't tell.
I think it's also because of all these STUPID REQUIREMENTS piling up like ice cream on a cone.
except that it's not even close to ice cream. That's the only simile i could think of right now.
Well, I'm done for now. My friggin' brain is tired. Just tired.
I'm tired of school, I'm tired of what's happening, I'm tired of feeling bad
I'm tired of being disappointed.
dis.ap.point.ed
[dis-uh-point-id]
-adj
- depressed or discouraged by the failure of one's hopes or expectations.
- Obsolete. inadequently appointed; ill-equipped.
taking a break
i've got hell of things to do. :)) but stiiiiilll:P
1.Nasubukan mo na bang magkagusto
sa mas matanda sayo?
-- laging mas matanda yung nagugustuhan ko :))
2.When was the last time you ate
adobo?
-- ionno
3.Gaano ka importante sayo ung
cellphone mo?
-- kay lang. i don't feel it's importance right now. because i don't text much anymore but hell i can't lose it!
4. What is your favorite song?
-- i still love so close :> nothing's gonna change that
5. When was the last time you watched
in cinema?
-- i think it was last January pa. OHmygawd ang tagal na!! :|
6.Are you conscious to your self?
-- haah?
7.Naranasan mo na bang ma- insecure
sa iba?
-- onaman
8. Naransan mo na bang pag-agawan?
-- oh wow. :)) AHAHA i don't think so
9. Who is the person whom you hated
most?
-- my friends know who
10. What's the reason?
-- believe me it's not the reason, it;s more of the reasonS
11. What is your best asset?
-- you tell me
14. Gano ka kadalas lumabas ng bahay
niyo?
-- not always. i like staying at home
15 . Are you close with your cousins?
-- yeaah
16. What is the name of your dog/s?
--mocha :D
18. Do you wear ring everyday?
-- SOMEONE lost the ring i'd wear everyday. badtrip talaga :|
you know who you are, you owe me.
19. How about bracelets?
-- not everyday
20. Do you wear braces?
-- yes. almost 5 years :|
ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS AS HONESTLY AS
YOU CAN..
1. Are you happy?
-- no.
2. Who are you chatting with
rightnow?
-- no one
3. What's the last thing
you bought?
-- food
4. Who were the last people you hung
out with?
-- batchmates
5. Have you ever broken a promise?
-- no, i haven't
7.What are you most excited about?
-- end of torture!
8 . What do you usually do when
you're bored?
-- internet, eat, sleep, watch
9 . Who was the last person to text
you?
-- Ate Vera
10 Who was the last person who gave
you a testimonial?
-- was it Nicole? ionno
11. Do you talk to yourself?
-- no
12. What do you do when your heart
is broken?
-- i cry and then look really pretty bwahaah!! =))
13. Are you a good friend?
-- i believe so
14. What ARE your hobbIES?
--tons of things :))
15. Are you artistic?
-- i dunno if i should consider myself as artistic :))
16. Do you wear contact lenses?
--when i feel like wearing them :P
17. What is your favorite food?
-- i have a favorite for every cuisine :P
18.Have you ever lost your phone?
-- no! :D weeee
19. Who do you miss?
-- no one i can think of right now.
20. Will you ever admit to your crush
that you like him/her?
-- when he does :)) HAHAHA i wish =)) nah my crush is so unreachable :))
1.Nasubukan mo na bang magkagusto
sa mas matanda sayo?
-- laging mas matanda yung nagugustuhan ko :))
2.When was the last time you ate
adobo?
-- ionno
3.Gaano ka importante sayo ung
cellphone mo?
-- kay lang. i don't feel it's importance right now. because i don't text much anymore but hell i can't lose it!
4. What is your favorite song?
-- i still love so close :> nothing's gonna change that
5. When was the last time you watched
in cinema?
-- i think it was last January pa. OHmygawd ang tagal na!! :|
6.Are you conscious to your self?
-- haah?
7.Naranasan mo na bang ma- insecure
sa iba?
-- onaman
8. Naransan mo na bang pag-agawan?
-- oh wow. :)) AHAHA i don't think so
9. Who is the person whom you hated
most?
-- my friends know who
10. What's the reason?
-- believe me it's not the reason, it;s more of the reasonS
11. What is your best asset?
-- you tell me
14. Gano ka kadalas lumabas ng bahay
niyo?
-- not always. i like staying at home
15 . Are you close with your cousins?
-- yeaah
16. What is the name of your dog/s?
--mocha :D
18. Do you wear ring everyday?
-- SOMEONE lost the ring i'd wear everyday. badtrip talaga :|
you know who you are, you owe me.
19. How about bracelets?
-- not everyday
20. Do you wear braces?
-- yes. almost 5 years :|
ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS AS HONESTLY AS
YOU CAN..
1. Are you happy?
-- no.
2. Who are you chatting with
rightnow?
-- no one
3. What's the last thing
you bought?
-- food
4. Who were the last people you hung
out with?
-- batchmates
5. Have you ever broken a promise?
-- no, i haven't
7.What are you most excited about?
-- end of torture!
8 . What do you usually do when
you're bored?
-- internet, eat, sleep, watch
9 . Who was the last person to text
you?
-- Ate Vera
10 Who was the last person who gave
you a testimonial?
-- was it Nicole? ionno
11. Do you talk to yourself?
-- no
12. What do you do when your heart
is broken?
-- i cry and then look really pretty bwahaah!! =))
13. Are you a good friend?
-- i believe so
14. What ARE your hobbIES?
--tons of things :))
15. Are you artistic?
-- i dunno if i should consider myself as artistic :))
16. Do you wear contact lenses?
--when i feel like wearing them :P
17. What is your favorite food?
-- i have a favorite for every cuisine :P
18.Have you ever lost your phone?
-- no! :D weeee
19. Who do you miss?
-- no one i can think of right now.
20. Will you ever admit to your crush
that you like him/her?
-- when he does :)) HAHAHA i wish =)) nah my crush is so unreachable :))
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