I must stop hurting myself

Here are the texts that are kept in my phone. I thought that reading it would be okay but then i realized that i only just get hurt missing the feeling and him more. his stupid promises are here and I want to stop thinking of reminding those to him. This shall be for memory's sake because someday, I will love again. Someone who will be here for me.

12.09.07
hey dear, hahaha... just woke up. This is my new globe number by the way. Haha! See you soon. :) -manuel

12.10.07
Finally, have a good night sleep my dear joelle. hahaha you too, rest well. I miss you dear, hahaha. night, see you tomorrow.

12.12.07
what will be good, what? Hahaha... Let's go out dear. I'll treat you for my christmas gift for you. hahaha. But i want to go out one day with you alone, that's if you don't mind. hahaha. So what do you think?

12.13.07
Good night dear joelle. sleep well and have a pleasant morning. nice talking with you, i really am happy being with you again. Can't wait too. oh, well, rest well. And i miss you very much. See you soon.

12.13.07
hey joelle. I just wanted you to sleep a little bit longer now although i still would like to talk to you. You're singing was seriously sweet. I like it very much. Thank you though for singing to me, I do appeciate it. Have a goodnight sleep my joelle. Text me tomorrow when you get up, okay? I miss you so much even though i say (saw) you the other day when i went to makiling. Hahaha. I'm excited to see you na rin tomorrow. hahaha. Alright, rest well. night dear.

12.14.07
i don't know where it came from, Hahaha... all of a sudden that's what came out of my mind, just saying that i miss you. Hahaha. Well, random kung random, random talaga eh. Hehehe.

Yeah doesn't matter if you miss me or not. Hahaha. i'm just telling you my side. Anyways, what's up duck?  Hahaha...

Okay dear.goodnight my joelle. sleep well and hope we get a nice day tomorrow. Sweet dreams my dear. See you tomorrow. Hahaha.

12.15.07
hey dear. Wahaha... I can't believe that this day happened. It's like I'ms dreaming. Hahaha. you don't know how happy i am today. hahaha. I thank god that this dream became a reality. I love you very much my joelle dear.

yeah, mahal na mahal kita mahal kong joelle. Me too, hahaha! I'm shocked too.

you'll sleep na. Sorry i just read your message now. Okay dear, thank you also for making this day so special. Grabe, i feel so great today, seriously. I love you my joelle dear. I hope we don't give up. I want to be with you again my dear joelle. Sleep well okay. nd don't forget to pray. I love you.kiss.Mwah! :-*

12.16.07
hey my dear. Rise and shine, i just woke up now. How was your sleep dear? Slept well? One good morning kiss from me, mwah! Love you.

Yeah i know, but i want t hang out with you more than with them. i already saw them naman in the past few days. Hahaha. So yeah.

.....Dear, please don't say that, i will be seeing you soon, i hope. Oh well, i hope you'll love me even though i go to singapore for so long. wala lang.

Okay dear. i don't promise that i will love you. hahaha. Ayan, hehehe but i seriously do love you as well. mwah!

Seriously, can we meet somewhere in UP tonight? I'd be willing to go there... hahaha. Okay, whatever dear. But i'm assuming that you'll also make it to the scholarship grant i have in lasalle. hahaha. Come on dear, if you really want to study there, you'll do everything right? so do it. Mwah! at para, schoolmates tayo. Hahaha and so that i'll see my princess everyday. hahaha. Lol.

Hahaha. you are my girl. Hahaha.

I liked the last one. Hahaha. I weill be that someone who will watch the stars and the moon with you.

I want to fly with you up in the sky where nobody can see us dance together to the music, so close... Hahaha. Impossible na impossible nga to. Hahaha.

Oh nice. Hahaha. Alright dear, goodnight. Hava a pleasant sleep and try to wake up a little bit later this time. hahaha. Mwah! I love you more than you love me, so yeah. Mwah! night dear, sweet dreams. Love you :-*:-*:-*


12.18.07
not really, I will feel like a prince if a princess like you sits beside me. Hahaha. Mwah!

12.19.07
Mwah! I love you200x. Mwah! hahaha. Good morning. Have a longer sleep this time dear. Sleep well. You, pray before you go to bed. God bless you always. Love you very very very much for the last before i sleep. Mwah!:-*

Oh nice. My dear, you make me really miss you. huhu. I seriously feel like crying now just to let everything out, because i really really miss you talaga. That's why low energy ako ngyon. Huhu. I love you my joelle.

12.20.07
Dear, i think i need to go to bed na before i completely fall asleep. So goodnight-morning my dear joelle. Have a good sleep. Rest well. Sweet dreams my beloved dear. Mwah! I love you very very much much. :-* kiss sa lips! :-* so sweet. Mwah!

12.21.07
Yeah, we really should. I don't like saying goodbyes to actually. huhu. But we must because we can't talk all day naman. Hahaha. Dear, i really alo thank god for the both of us being together. I hope god likes the both of us to really be together. Mwah!:-* thank you for accepting me into your life. Kisses, mwah! Mwah! Mwah! Mwah! :-*:-*:-*:-* and hugs. :-) love you very much my dear joelle. Sleep well and goodnight.

Oh yeah. Hahaha. Hope i was there with you now. huhu. Mwah! It makes me really miss you. :-)

12.22.07
Hey dear, i'm so so so lucky that i finally met a girl someone like you. Seriously, you are not this type of girl na you know, go lang ng go. So yeah. I'm so lucky, I hope you stay the same as you are even though you're 18 years old na pero of course be a little bit more of an adult-like na rin. So good night my dear love joelle. Sweet dreams and i love you very much. Mwah! Kiss. Mwah!

Hey dear, just had my haircut. Hahaha. Mwah, i cut it short because you liked it that way. Hahaha. Mwah. What are you doing now my lovely dear?

iloveyoujoelle.

Oh. Just stay away from those smokers dear. yeah, i wish i was there with you now. I could have hugged you the whole night. Mwah! Love you dear. I'm really worried about you now, wala lang. Love you.

No, i also hate you for not being here. I want to be withyou also. Hay,so close but yet so far. Hahaha. Mwah! Love yah!

12.23.07
Dear, good night or good morning. Hahaha. Mwah! I really really really do love you very very very muchies. Hahaha. Mwah! Sleep well dear.

Hey good morning dear. I woke up at 11:30am but i decided to wait for your text message. hahaha. Mwah! I think while i was sleeping, my little boy cousin was touching my phone, so he probably sent that. Hahaha. Mwah! Anyways, i slept soundly and i dreamt of you and me again. Mwah! Have a nice day dear. Love you. :-)

12.24.07
You're really dead asleep. Hahaha. Mwah! I've been trying to wake you up with my calls but it seems that you really are dreaming na. Hahaha. I hope nandyan ako. Mwah! the party hasn't finished yet, but i went home na with my cousins so our employees can enjoy themselves there. Hahaha. So yeah, good morning na lang dear when you wake up. I hope you had a pleasant sleep. Mwah! Miss you so so so much dear, i swear. Hay naku, i don't know what to do in singapore when i am not with you. Huhu. Oh well, cge, love you very muchies. Mwah! Kiss sa lips...:-*

My dear, i love you very much. Wala lang. Mwah!

12.25.07
Oh dear. Merry christmas my love joelle. I really really want to see you na. You don't know how much i really want to be with you now. I want to hug you all day. Mwah! Love ang kisses my dear, good night. Rest well. Mwah!

Hey joelle dear. I just woke up. Hehehe. Mwah! Good afternoon my love and merry merry christmas to you again. Hope you have a fun and exciting day today. Love you very much my joelle.

12.26.07
Yeah. I wanted too talk to you pero i was like shy because we weren't together pa. Hehehe. Oh well, yeah i think this is really a challenge for the both of us. Mwah!

Okay dear. Goodnight to you. Have a pleasant sleep and wishing you a mery christmas and this time, a prosperous new year. Hope everything will go fine. I love you with all my heart my joelle. Mwah! Kiss!:-*


12.27.07
Hahaha. Mwah! Good night dear. Sleep well. I love you very much too. I won't drink a lot naman. Hahaha. Sweetest dreams darling. Mwah! Love yah.

12.28.07
Yes dear, i'm just being who i am. Hahaha. Not pretending to be somebody else that's why they like me. Hahaha. Good night dear. Sleep well. Love you so much my joelle dear. Mwah! :-* wowie misses you.