Chronicles of words and thoughts from my attic: It is entitled "Missing"

I was wandering through my attic yet again. As i ventured through many piles of words and thoughts in my attic, I managed to get my hands on another piece of words and thoughts. I took 5 minutes of my time to stare at it. After 5 minutes, I sat down and read through it. It said:

"I'm missing something and i'm not quite sure what it is.

Missing something and not being sure what that thing exactly is, is probably harder than actually being aware of this missing object. I think this is true for the thought that there is something missing. This thought haunts me forever 'til I finally figure out what it is or 'til I eventually, find it. This is seeemingly more complicated compared to just looking and looking. Unfortunately, right now this missing thing is unbearably making me aware that i am missing it. I know that it's there but i don't know what it is or how to reach it.

For the many times I've been blind or simply dumb for not looking hard enough and losing things, this search may be the most difficult one. It haunts me. I get feelings or vibes yet I can't seem to figure out what it is and I don't seem to know how to get anywhere near it. It isn't tangible and that makes it the hardest. Do you know what else is driving me crazy? It's thei idea that's pushing me to ask myself: Is it right that I am searching for this? Am i merely wasting my time? This is torture for me as I frantically keep on searching.

If found, I'm sorry, I don't know how to reward you for it is quite impossible. There's another hint. There's only one person who could find it and all i could give in return is a part of me.

I think i know what I'm missing. I may be making possibly one of the biggest mistakes in my life for I could be wrong. That's what makes me human.

I think i know what I'm missing. What I think i know i'm missing may be wrong but as of now, it seems like the right thought to think of.

I think i know what I'm missing. I unusually say that what I am missing is not a something but a someone. My dear friend, my dear dear friend, I am here to tell you that that someone is--"


I was back to my senses again staring at this piece full of thoughts and words. The last part was torn. I was going to search through the piles again to find the remaining piece but reality had beckoned. It was time for me to go back down and finish things i had to do. As i went through my day doing things i had to do, all that circled my brain was the thought and determination for me to find that other piece. Until I find it and put it in this blog, I shall keep moving.

the webcam game

I was so bored today so i made up a game! :D

THE WEBCAM GAME

1. Get yourself really bored in front of the computer.
2. Put on the Webcam thing in My Computer
3. Take numerous pictures of yourself.
4. Turn it in to GIF.
5. HAVE FUN!!

It's fun I swear :D ahahha!!

super short part ng Nodka cheer

nakakatawa si Leanne, Clyde, Steph at Daniel :))

super short part ng Oistea cheer

natuwa lang ako kay Roi! napakapokerface :)) haha :D

boo. this is lame :)) [from ericka]

The FEMALE BODY survey.

Come on ladies, be truthful!

1. What color bra you wearing?
white :)) no excitement there :)) hahaah!!

2. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
it should fit :))

3. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
YES! :)) and it's not even just a boy :)) hahaa :P

5. Do you have a best friend?
yeah

7. who was the last person you hugged?
steph :D

8. Have you ever had your heart broken?
yieeah =)) hahah!

9. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
no :))

10. Do you like your life?
hell yeah :D

11. Do you shop at hollister?
no

12. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?
no

13. have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
more of slowly crept in :)) then i drowned :)) hahaha!

14. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
girls

15. How long have you had multiply?
ehh

16. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
i can't waiit to do it :)) hahaha!

17. What are your biggest fears?
the unknown

18. Has anyone close to you ever passed away?
not yet :|

19. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
i think.... nott :))

20. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
i didn't try :))

21. Do you believe in the saying “once a cheater, always a cheater”?
:|

22. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?
yea

23. Do you ever wish you were famous?
for something i've done amazing :)

24. Are you currently missing someone?
yieah HAHA that someone just doesn't know how much ;;)

25. Do you think any guys will open this just because it’s labeled “The female body survey?
those guys just have nothing to do with their lives :)) haha!

Todos Los Santos

this is my Arts Studies exam. yeaah go go go! :)) hahah!
eto yung pinagpuyatan kong homework :)) hahaa! haii buhay nga naman :))

pagpupuyat.

Okay it was the first time i tried staying up to do a project.
i'm not really used to doing it coz i'm what you could call a morning person. Usually my mind works best in the moring wait no.. when the sun's up. i worked til probably 3.

as time wore on i could feel my arms actually getting heavier by the second.

i felt my brains slowly coughing out.

i felt my patience.. i was running out of it.

it was pretty annoying because this certain video was totally lagging. it annoyed me so much.

the time now is  2 AM

what sucked even more was that i wasn't the only one in the room so i hat to put the friggin volume down. I strained my ears to actually get something out of it.

you have to finish it now so you don't have to worry about anything else tomorrow

that little voice in my head just helped me keep going.

the time now is 3AM

mom says go to sleep now.. hahah!

i give up eventually feeling as if my arms were dumbels. the occasional stretching of arms and cracking of bones was of no use to me anymore. even those things weren't effective.

it only meant one thing: get your butt in the bed and go to sleep girl.

i followed my instincts..




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