Who woulda thought?

Okay well, I just got the copy of our Grade School yearbook earlier this afternoon (oh yes after 3 years. :|) =)) HAHA but anyway I didn't really take too much time looking at it since I wasn't really that existent in my grade school years. Doesn't really matter. But still though, even if it didn't take me forever to look through it, it got me totally looking at moments when I thought of stuff COMPLETELY differently.

Well, I don't know when this whole thing started, but there was this moment when I came across a certain date that happened months or even years ago then I'd find myself thinking, "At that particular date, who woulda thought that....?"

Okay for example. April 15, 2006. That was the date I decided to make a Multiply. At that moment, there was ABSOLUTELY NOTHING in this site. Who woulda thought that on that date, two years from then I was gonna be writing about that trivial date? Well, on that date when I decided to make this Multiply I didn't think that I was gonna blog about this.

It's just this bizarre feeling I keep getting. When I see little girls in church playing with their little toys or fooling around with their mommies and daddies I'd suddenly think that years ago, I was like that. Completely ignorant or oblivious that more than ten years from that moment, I'd be stressing over getting into a great college or a stupid pimple that comes out of nowhere or figuring out how the heck I sometimes end up like an emotional wreck. Crying over what people regard to as mababaw or whatever. That's a lot to take in at one go but the thought that those things weren't anywhere near my list of priorities before just sends my head spinning to wherever.

I don't know. It just feels so weird for a lot of things to happen but then you'd stop in your tracks suddenly realizing that you never once thought of these to happen. I mean, honestly, three years ago, I never thought I was going to come close to the meaning of love and heartbreak. All these deep "who woulda thought" thoughts lead me to thinking even more. So today's April 21, 2008. What specific emotion would I be experiencing after four months? How would I be handling/looking at things after exactly two years? Who would I be married to after 10 years? Right now I have absolutely no clue to any of my questions and just thinking about them makes my mind go off like some crazy alarm clock. I know I shouldn't be thinking about these because those aren't happening now. As of now they don't matter because I wouldn't be getting anywhere near them if I didn't focus on what I should be doing at the moment. For all I know I should probably be cherishing every letter I type because maybe tomorrow I'd get a new laptop! Life is full of endless possibilities afterall. :P

As I type this, I could see my thick, blue, heavy yearbook across the room. Just thinking about how weird I look at some pictures makes me shudder. Here I am thinking too much again =)) haha I couldn't tell if my thinking too much is a curse or what. :| One thing's for sure though, this wouldn't be the last time I'll be asking that question to myself again. Who knows? After exactly five years, five months and five days, I'd probably find myself typing words I never thought I'd be using about some random topic I never thought would ever cross my mind. =)) Well, 'til that moment comes, I'll just do what I have to do right now. :P

(totally unsure if I made even a tiny bit of sense here.) =))